Unhinged Desire (Unedited)

The Fire That Burns Within

Chapter Nine

~Violet's POV~

I wake up, still fully exhausted. I got like 10 hours of sleep since I called it a night early, but I just don't feel like it. It feels like I stayed up all night for like a week straight, plus it feels like I have a massive ass hangover, but I don't ever drink. I sigh, trying to ignore the pounding in my head. Teegan fucking Quinn comes storming into my room with that 'get outta bed and live' attitude of hers and I feel like I'm dying. I try getting out of school, but everyone agrees it'll be a good distraction. Yeah, right, that's how every teenager feels. I roll my eyes, but get ready nonetheless and head to school.

"Just ignore the pain and try to enjoy today." Tee gives me a soft smile. I just ignore it and continue looking out the passenger seat window. We pull up to school shortly and I get out. I keep my head down, though pounding it still is.

"Why are you here today?" Someone who I've never even met before wonders out loud in my first period. Really dude? Today is not the day.

"It's school, I'm forced to come, but clearly you think that I shouldn't be here which should probably be a sign that maybe messing with me today of all days is a bad move so how 'bout you turn your scrawny little ass around and mind your own fucking business." I snap at him. He gulps and hastily turns around. Smart boy.

The rest of the period and the ones that follow, pass by as slow as turtles. I keep waiting for something to go wrong, but the only thing wrong is this damn headache that I can't seem to shake. I meet up with Tee at lunch and we stay away from normal humanity, especially today since all the noise is making my massive headache worse.

"I will never understand how you can eat those." She grumbles as I pull out a baggie of raw noodles.

"Maybe if your little hoe self would give them a chance..." I give her a knowing look. She shakes her head.

"Never in a million years, tramp." She retorts. I laugh at that.

"Your loss." I shrug.

"My gain you mean. I swear there is something wrong with that head of yours." I see her looking over at me out of the corner of my eye.

"The only thing wrong with my head is this headache, but believe what you will child, but the facts are the facts." I raise an eyebrow, glancing at her. She laughs.

"I'm older than you, child." She speaks with a taunting tone. I roll my eyes, I mean what does she know anyway?

"A lot more than you." She sings. Did I say that out loud? I could've sworn it was just in my head.

"Hoe." I mutter. She laughs.

"Don't be bitter, skank." Yes it's official, I hate my best friend. We share a look, but soon after we're both holding our heads from massive headaches. What is happening? It feels like the life is being sucked out of me and I get the feeling that Tee isn't feeling any better than me. I try to breathe through it, but the scorching pain won't subside. I grip my hair as tightly as possible, hoping that it will magically cause the pain to stop. A few moments later, the only pain that remains is the ache of what once was hellfire. We look to each other, stunned and confused, but there is no explanation, nothing that will take away this gut feeling that something has definitely changed. I just shrug and give her a look, before getting up and going to fifth period, leaving Tee behind still recovering.

I walk into fifth period with my head low. This class is really causing problems for me. I go to my seat and wait for Tee to come in too. She comes in and sits beside me. The atmosphere changes when Jaxton walks in. You can feel it. The tension. He walks past my seat and I roll my eyes. Can he just not? Zander walks in right behind him and goes to his seat as well. Tee looks back at them to which I mentally facepalm at. I can now feel Jaxton's stare burning the back of my head, I grip my desk and squeeze, trying to ignore it all. I take a deep breath. Just when I think I'm calm Zander walks up to Tee, trying to talk to her. She graces me with a slight weary glance. I roll my eyes at that.

"Why don't you just not, Zander? Why can't you two just do what I asked? What you asked of us? You wanted us to leave you the hell alone, yet you still come waltzing in and 'trying to help' or whatever the fuck you guys are doing. You're such a freaking hypocrite, you have no idea. Stop. Just stop. Stay away from us and our family. I'm not going to tell you again." The whole class and teacher is looking at me. The teacher has a red face and sends me to the office for 'inappropriate language', the other students looked shocked and confused. Jaxton looks unfazed. Zander looks baffled. Teegan, Tee looks sad and angry all at once. I sigh, but walk out and down the hall towards the office. What is my life becoming? There is something in me that makes it so easy to hate those boys and I don't know why. There's something unsettling about them, but I fear I may never truly know. No. I will find out. I refuse to give up. I will find the answers I so dearly search, but patience is key. Though I'm like the most impatient person in the world. Nonetheless, I will seek and I will come out on top.

The people in the office make me stay there the rest of the period, but send me on without a problem when the bell rings. I get up, rolling my eyes. Thanks majorly for wasting my freaking time. I go to sixth period, English. I love this class and I love that it follows my least favorite class. I go to my desk and ignore the idiot classmates. The class starts as per usual and everything seems to be pretty good, though my headache is really bad, but I guess that's a side effect of dealing with that stupid Duo and the office wasting my time. I roll my eyes at the memory, but a tingling grows on my arms. I'm cold. I rub my arms together, trying to warm them up, but its not like cold from the room, its cold from inside of me. What does that even mean, Vi? Are you stupid? Cold from inside of you? Really? But honestly, what is happening to me? Nothing, you are completely normal you're just sleep deprived from the move, meeting intriguingly hot boys, losing a sister. A lot has just happened in a few days, but you are normal. Everything is normal no matter how crazy things seem. In a few days everything'll calm down, you'll get good rest and everything will seem perfectly normal and boring again. I try to ignore my gut telling me that my mind is wrong. I want so badly to listen to my mind. I mean as a writer, this move is golden. Those boys are beyond a mystery to me, I will never in a bazillion years understand them and losing Nikki was super hard, but it just doesn't feel right. It makes perfect sense, but there's something in me saying 'you're an idiot if you believe that' but there is nothing else that logically makes any sense. This is why I like math, it just adds up. It doesn't lie, it can't be argued. Everything is simply proven by doing. I love writing because it is a whole other world, one that can be made or broken so easily. I'm in control of it all and nothing can prove me wrong, but life? I don't love life. It's a big mystery. It can't be solved, it can't be created and destroyed, it's just there taunting everyone daily. I shake my head, how did I get so sidetracked? Every second that passes I get colder and colder. It feels like icicles are forming on my arms, chills run down my legs, my head starts tingling. Everything is cold. I feel frozen, scared to move in fear of breaking and just being dead. How did it get so cold? I try to very carefully rub my hands over my arms, but my hands feel like ice, that only makes it worse. I'm about to die, no doubt about it. I'm about to die from hypothermia.

Fire. There is fire burning from every direction and I am trapped in it. I know this is when I die.

I grab my head as my headache worsens and I try to make sense of what I just saw. How did the fear feel so real? Why did it just flash before my eyes? What is happening today? I shake off this feeling inside of me. Or I try to anyway. The fire felt so real that it warmed my skin instantly, I'm no longer cold. I'm not hot either. It's like I don't feel anything, physically. I ask to be excused to go to the restroom, but when I walk out there's this feeling inside of me. Something's wrong. I hear Tee's voice screaming out. 

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