College Affairs(BWWM)

Four

It's Complicated (Darren)

After me and Naomi little make out session, I understood why my feelings for her are what they are. I never thought I saw myself this crazy over someone ever in my life. I just feel we are meant for each other. I know she feels the same way but only one thing is stopping her to do it...Jake. He is the definition of a 'fuck boy'. He fucks anything that he can get in reach of and that's why all these girls be sprung over him...he tells them lies so he can get what he wants. I just hope and pray that Naomi doesn't fall for the same shit. I have noticed they have been spending more time together and it kind of makes me jealous. But, her feelings are the same towards me, right? She didn't just make me believe she was interested in me? Ugh...why is she being so fucking complicated? While listening to music, I heard a slight knock on my door. I opened the door and saw Naomi standing there...with tears in her eyes.

Naomi...are you okay?

No. Mind if I come in here?

Not at all.

She smiled at me as I opened the door so she can come in. I closed the door and she laid down on my bed and patted the spot next to her. I climbed in the bed next to her and she wrapped her arms around me.

So...what's wrong, Naomi?

Jake...he showed his true colors. All he wanted was a quick fuck. Can't believe I didn't see it.

Well, what happened?

I just heard some girl in his room and he said the same shit to her that he has been telling me these past few weeks. Gosh...my mom was right. I have to keep my focus.

Well, I'm here. If you just...you know.

I know. I'm wish I've been spending these last few weeks with you instead of him. Would have probably been way romantic than him.

Well, I do know a little something something about romance.

I know you do. But, let's change the topic. Let's just sit in silence and just enjoy each other company.

Fine with me.

She smiled up at me and closed her eyes. I scooted down so that I was closer to her and wrapped my arms around her as well. I kissed her forehead and I saw her slightly smile then I went to sleep. I'm glad she finally saw what I was trying to keep her away from. But, she's making the right decision...being me is the only right decision.

The next morning, I woke up and noticed that Naomi was still next to me...her body still wrapped around mines. I smiled as I gently got up and went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and smiled at myself as I got ready for today. I began brushing my teeth when I heard my room door open. I looked out the bathroom door and saw Naomi leaving.
Probably has to get ready for class to. I went back to brushing my teeth and getting ready. I turned on the shower and began to reminisce about last night with Naomi. The fact that she was comfortable enough to come spend the night with me and vent out to me makes me feel like a whole other person. Maybe she feels the same? Or something more than a friend?

Naomi

I think I have my feelings mixed up. The first semester is almost over in three weeks and two guys have shown me things that I have never experience in all my life. Like no one has ever tried so hard to get my attention or try so hard to get in my panties. Maybe because I never allowed them too. Unlike my sister and brother, let these dumb ass people get in their head and gave them both kids at a young age. But, I love my nieces and nephew so, I'm not complaining all the way. Sometimes I just hate that I rarely see them anymore. And with me going home pretty soon, I'm pretty sure it's going to be hell in the house. The thing is now how do I choose between these two guys I have come to know and like. Me and Jake have some chemistry together but it's not as strong as me and Darren's. We are physically and mentally connected and that is something I can't just pass up. But, I do have all of my college years to find someone new but I kinda like where my options are now. Last night with Darren, was something I needed. Just falling asleep in his arms made me feel like I was his girl...the only thing that matters to him. Maybe I should stop playing with him and give this a try. Hell, he should come with me when I go see my family for winter break. Now that I think of it, that's not such a bad idea. I'll ask him...after my classes for today.