His Pretended Fianceé

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

''''''''''''''Sia''''''''''''''

"Its okay if you want to be out of this pretended relationship?" I asked "I do understand I am lethal, a grenade that can blast any moment. You are not safe with me."

"Whatever you think about yourself," he said looking directly into my eyes and although I take time to trust people I knew he meant every bit of the word that he was speaking "Sia whatever you have assumed about yourself, I understand you have been through a lot to make yourself think this about yourself but I know I am not endangered in your company. More than that I like being with you. So I do not want to be out of this this relationship, not voluntarily." He pressed my hands in assurance "but if you feel trapped and uncomfortable in my company I understand and there is no pressure. I totally understand"

I blinked my eyes but unlike my character to always convert a vulnerable and serious situation into a funny one I let him speak "I won't say that I wouldn't miss you, our togetherness, the secret we share but yes I will live, I'll survive" his vulnerable self was completely exposed.

He wasn't living his life; he was surviving.

Just like me

My heart did a little fluttering.

I might have developed a little something for my childhood crush.

Yes! He was indeed my crush

I have really liked him, obsessed over him for years, I was even jealous of Pari sometimes to have a hilarious and outgoing friend like him.

He was always sweet and never missed a chance to compliment anyone and everyone.

Especially mom. Mom was a die hard fan of him, still is.

I remember once when he was home for Pari's birthday party, he shook hands with me and also complimented me on the bird shaped pendant of mine.

I was so happy that I kept the pendant in my drawers for years.

Well I am not going to share the tiny secret that I did not wash my hand until next morning.

He is indeed a charmer.

He'd always carry an aura of fresh air around him.

Probably I suggested /proposed this pretentious relationship with him because I wanted him around.

Not that I still have that crush on him but because I need someone who'd not pity or judge me because I am adopted or molested in my childhood.

There was actually a reason why I wanted him around.

But now his closeness scares the shit out of me.

I think I am starting to have feelings for him.

And I don't want it.

I do not like being mushy

It only complicates things

And the L' name given to the feelings is just too overrated.

I want freedom

And I do not want to lose him

Do I sound meaningful?

Taking a deep sigh I mask myself into the strong Sia again "Don't fool me. I know you are only looking forward to have a hot, beautiful and intelligent girl like me in your relationship status."

When I did not get any reaction I said further "Moreover you are still scared of your ex who would come and stick to you like a leech the first instance she comes to know you are single." I gave a model like twist "anyways I am still hotter than her"