I Held My Head Up High (Sequel to Adopted By Lin Manuel Miranda)

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These have gotten boring, the whole diary entry thing, so I'm gonna try something different. I'm gonna write it in the form of a letter and it'll be written to someone, probably dad or Anthony or someone.
Dear, Dad
Tomorrow is the anniversary of Ryan's death, July 29th. I haven't decided if I'm gonna tell you or not. I'm in a weird place where I want to remember him, but I also feel like I can't just stop an entire day to remember. I feel like everyone would hate me if I just sat in my room an entire day and did nothing. 
I love living with you and mom and Seb, but going from being the younger sibling and having a younger sibling was a big change for me.
I love Seb to death, but it's sometimes hard to be the one looking after instead of being watched. I miss Ryan, but I'm also really grateful I have another brother.
But I hate the anniversary of deaths. It's like another day but you just know there's something off about it.
Like you know on that day however many years ago you would lose someone.
I think it was worse since I had already lost my parents.
At the time I felt I had no one to turn to. Connor was grieving his best friend, I didn't want to interrupt that. So I was just there. Trying to understand what happened.
So yeah, I think that's it.
I think I'll tell you tomorrow that it's the anniversary. I plan on just sitting on my bed and just thinking, maybe I'll design a few shirts or write more of these letters.
Ok I love you daddy
I scribbled a heart at the end of the letter.
Bailey Miranda
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Guys I just figured out how this story is gonna end and I apologize in advance