I love you and I always do by: Chubbhiegirl
Short story lamang po ito.. sana ay magustuhan niyo ang aking munting akda. salamat sa nagbasa at naka appreciate dito.. thanks!! godbless po
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20 years.. na taon na kong nagmamahal.. at isang tao lang ang sigaw ng puso ko.. isang tao lang ang laging hinahanap ko..
Kahit hindi niya ko kilala.. ayos lang. kontento akong nakikita ko siya kahit malayuan lang..
I didn't bother to confess my feelings for him.. kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na may iba siyang mahal.. tulad ko, nagpapakatanga siya dun sa babaeng napaka swerte dahil nakakatanggap ng pagmamahal niya..
I'm his childhood friend and he didn't know about our past.. and i know he didn't care about it anyway.. the time na magbalik siya from states and we met at the same school he didn't knew about me..
And it hurts alot.. ang sakit kasi hindi ka na kilala ng lalaking minahal mo simula pagkabata at despite the truth na hanggang ngayon ganun parin ang feelings mo para sa kanya..
Di lang yan ang naranasan kong sakit..
May time na nagpropose siya kay girl na kung pwedeng manligaw..
May time na kinikuntsaba niya ang school for his surprise for that girl he loves the most.. even if there is a rumor that the she love is cheating on him.. he does not care about it.. all important for him is he loves the girl and he don't want to lose her..
How pathetic right? kung sa bagay pareho lang naman kami eh.. yun nga lang ayoko nang makigulo pa.. magkaiba kami.. magkaibang magkaiba..
until one day a shocking news break my heart.. that it almost leads me to suicide.. but in the end, i didn't do that fucking idea..
As the news got arrived that they're already couples.. i came to their life.. i don't know what's the beginning to this.. all i know is i want to protect the boy i love..
I may not the leading lady of the boy i love.. i'll make he's happy with his life even if it hurts to me..
I did my best but he still blind out of the truth..
one day i approached him..
"DAMN IT KURT!! YOUR GIRLFRIEND IS CHEATING ON YOU!! DIDN'T YOU SAW WITH YOUR ON EYES?! SHE DON'T LOVE YOU!! SHE'VE EVEN TREAT YOU AS A TOY!! KURT WAKE UP!!"
"shut up.."
"kurt.. your hurt.. please stop this.."
"shut up"
"your nothing to her--"
*SLAP*
"I SAID SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU MORON!! WHO ARE YOU?! WHO ARE YOU TO DICTATE WHAT TO DO?! YOUR STUPID WASTING YOUR TIME TO ME!! THEN YOU THINK YOU A HERO TO SAVE FROM THIS MESS?! HUH!! YOUR CRAZY!! I DIDN'T KNOW EVEN YOUR NAME AND THEN YOUR JUST ENTERING OUR LIVES WITHOUT KNOCKING?! HOW STUPID GIRL!!"
"yeah.. your right.. i'm stupid.. stupid to love a person who don't know me.. or rephrase that, i used to love the person who didn't remember me.. how stupid i am.. i've continue to love the person who are inlove to somebody else.. and i'm happy for that.. why? because for me, knowing that the person i love is already happy with o without me, i'm already happy.. i've love that person for almost 21 years.. stupid me.. as i've said, i was happy.. but not now.. kasi ngayon nakikita ko nang nasasaktan ang mahal ko.. nakikita ko ng gumuguho yung mundo niya ng dahil sa taong mahal niya.. ang sakit lang kurt.. ang sakit makita siyang ganon.. kaya nga i've love him secretly to sure na magiging masaya siya.. but now why? why kurt? bakit ka nagbubulagbulagan sa mga pangyayaring halos ikamatay mo na?"
"maybe your right that i'm blind.. at hangga't kaya kong magbulagbulagan, gagawin ko.. kahit masakit, ang importante mahal ko siya.."
"but kurt.."
"you finished your speech? now get out of my sight"
"kurt masasaktan ka lang"
"I DON'T CARE!! IKAW DIN NAMAN DIBA?! MINAHAL MO KO KAHIT ALAM MONG WALANG PAG-ASA?! KAHIT PATAGO MINAHAL MO KO?! NA WALA KANG PAKIALAM KAHIT NASASAKTAN KA KAPAG MAGKASAMA KAMI OR PDA IN FRONT OF YOU!! BECAUSE YOUR STUPID!! JUST LIKE ME!! SO DON'T INTERFERE WITH MY LIFE AGAIN!!"
"kurt.. i'm your childhood friend.. i love you more than anything.. i can di anything you want.. that makes you happy"
"DO WHATEVER I WANT?! GOOD THEN!! GET OUT OF MY SIGHT NOW!! GET LOST!! I DON'T LOVE YOU AND I WILL NOT!!"
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That time.. i didn't bother to stop him.. but i still love him.. i cannot deny it.. and i don't want to deny it.. alam ko wala naman itong patutunguhan..
Di ko naman hinihiling na magkaron ng happy ending ang lovelife ko..
Ni hindi nga ako nagkaroon ng sweet moments, romantic scene, pati mga kilig vibes..
Pero ayos lang sakin yun.. ako naman ang pumili nito eh..
Ako ang nagdesisyon sa buhay na magpakatanga para sa kanya.. na harapin lahat ng sakit para sa kanya..
Till one day.. na halos ikamatay ko ng malaman kong nasa hospital si kurt.. nag panic ako ng husto .. hindi ko alam.. kaya sumunod ako sa hospital that time..
His mom said that his heart is weak.. nagtangka pa itong magpakamatay ng makipagbreak sa kanya ang babaeng mahal niya..
When i heard that news.. i almost kill that stupid bitch!!
Then one only idea come into my mind.. but before i do that idea, i entered his room held his hand and leave a message..
"kurt, can you hear me? after the operation, please wake huh? i don't want to see you like this.. it hurts me alot.. especially my heart.. but i'll do everything for you to survive.. but promise me one thing.. you'll not give up and you will take care of yourself after recovering huh? don't forget.. i love you.. and i always do.."
Then left..
My decision is final.. I'll do this for you kurt.. i don't want you to suffer.. di bale nang ako.. wag ka lang..
At first ayaw nila.. ayaw nilang pumayag then until i convinced them.. napapayag ko din sila..
"hija.. salamat.. maraming maraming salamat.. napaka buti mong bata ka.. hindi ko alam kung pano kita susuklian.. napakabait mo jena.. salamat.."
Yan ang huli kong narinig.. then wala na..
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Kurt's POV
Years had passed..
"the patient is okay, wait for her to wake up.. excuse me" then i left
Another succesful operation i've done..
I am now a doctor.. heart surgeon..
In the past few years.. i've recover from my sickness.. after the heart transplan they've did to me, i became a doctor to heal heart of those patient..
Driving....
I placed a flower.. a yellowbell one.. the one she love when we are kids..
R.I.P.
Jena Cruz
January 13, **** --- December 24 ****
The girl who sacrificed her life for the one she love..
She gave her heart to me..
And i thanked for her about it..
And i promise to her that i won't hurt her heart and i'll take care of it just like she did to me.. i will love this wonderful gift for her and for her endless love.
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I love you and I always do by: Chubbhiegirl =)
