Just A Crush?

27. The Racing Heart

Heyyy guyssssss!!

Long time no see, yeah?

Sorry for the late update! (dodging all the eggs and watermelons that are thrown my way!)

I request you all to please go and check the cast and characters! I would have put it over here but I am very excited for the chapter...so ya.

Now that you have recalled the characters (sweet people please, just go through them once so that you can enjoy the update), you can read this chapter!!

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Previous chapter:

After a good silence of some five-ten minutes, I asked, "by the way, who is this guy?"

Her eyes darkened, "Karan Sanghvi, the nasty and notorious brother of Vivaan Sanghvi."

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I was scared. I was nervous. I was over thinking. I was wondering how he would react. And I was scared to know his reaction. It's been almost one and a half month that I developed feelings for Vivaan.

No. I have had feelings for Vivaan since more than that time. Truly speaking, I myself don't know when did I develop feelings for him, how did I develop feelings for him. From strangers to kind of haters to friends to... to something untitled. But it's almost one and a half month that I realized I felt something for Vivaan. Something strong. Something beautiful. Something painful. BUT SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

The cool night breeze rushed against my face, tossing some of my loose hair strands over my face. I wondered why it was so windy today. But it felt good. Nature always gave me comfort whenever I needed.

I am telling ya, I have got a weird connection with nature. Maybe because I am a daughter of Poseidon. Yus!

Will get a lil late. But why am I informing you? Even if I come down a little late, you still would be late.

Don't keep me waiting tardigrade - Arjit.

I relaxed a bit as Arjit's message popped up. It gave me extra time to prepare. Actually... extra time to be with my over thinking brain.

Arjit is my best friend. My MALE best friend. Yet I haven't told him a single word about my feelings for Vivaan. One and a half month...still he doesn't know anything. And I feel terrible for hiding this from him. Especially when he has confessed about the huge crush he had on Juhi during school times to the dark and vulnerable parts of his life. I feel guilty.

I trust him. A lot. I know that he wouldn't tell a single soul about whatever is supposed to be kept a secret. He is understanding. But the reason I didn't tell him was my fear. Arjit is very close to Vivaan. They are so close that Hiral and I once thought that they were brothers. After Sarthak, it's Arjit who comes to Vivaan. They spend so much time together that I fear my secret will accidentally slip out of Arjit's mouth. Or he may act a certain way that would give away my secret. And I don't want that to happen. I don't want Vivaan to know my feelings, not now at least. I don't want my own humiliation. I don't want his pity. I don't want to be left heart broken. I don't want awkward moments. I don't want to lose the amazing friendship that Vivaan and I share. I don't want to loose Vivaan because of my feelings.

And I was scared of one more thing- Arjit's answer. What if he would say that he already has a girl friend or he already likes someone else or that he has not yet moved on from someone from his past? What if he says that Vivaan doesn't do long term relationships? I am shit scared.