Loving Him {COMPLETED}

Te Amo

Chapter 16-

I wake up and felt a pair of strong arms around me. I turn over to see Ivan. I grin and stare at him sleeping peacefully. I reach up to touch his cheek and I trace his jaw line. I put my hand back on his cheek and he grabs my hand. I gasp and chuckle, "You scared me.." he chuckles and brings my hand to his lips and kisses it and holds my hand. "Good morning beautiful.." he says in his raspy voice. I love it when guys wake up and talk..

I blush and scoff, "Good morning, I'm not beautiful.." He looks at me and smiles, "I'm not handsome." I hesitate for a second, "But.. you are.." He squeezes my hand tighter, "Exactly." I roll my eyes, "Ah.. I see what you did there." I laugh. He kisses me on the lips and I can't help but smile. "What do you want to do today?" I ask tracing his jaw line yet again. He shrugs. "Well, I'm going shopping today. I need more clothes.."

I go to get up but he pulls me on top of him. I giggle. "You can wear merch," he explains with a grin. "As much as I'd love to.. you need to save it for your fans." He smiles, " You're my number one fan.." I giggle and nod. He gives me another kiss and I get up to brush my teeth. I hate my morning breath. I fix my hair and jump back onto the bed. Ivan grunts and chuckles. I lay on my stomach and prop up on my elbows and stare at him. "What?" He asks. I shrug, "Can't I look at my very handsome boyfriend..?"

"If only I can stare at my beautiful girlfriend!" He laughs, staring at me. I put my head down and let my hair block my face. "Stop.." I plead. "Why?" He asks, I still feel his eyes on me. "I.. I don't like when people stare at me.. I feel.. insecure." "Why?" I stay silent. "Why, babe?" He pushes. "Because I'm ugly, Ivan! I honestly don't understand why you'd be with some one like me! You're fucking sexy and all and here I am looking like cow shit!" I scream looking him in the eyes, tears already threating to spill from mine.

He sighs and pulls me on his lap, "Listen close... You are beautiful inside and out. I love you for you! I don't care how you look, you're funny, sweet, caring, just.. amazing in every way possible! Your beauty just adds to it. So stop putting yourself down.. I love you." He raises his voice slightly it's because he means it.. for once someone likes- no loves me for me and not my looks. I'm still ugly.. society has put it into my head that I'm ugly... No matter how hard I try to tell myself over and over countless times I'm pretty.. I just don't believe it. (Not real.. just for the story 😂)

"Ivan.. I know you mean it, honestly, I do. I've grown up my entire life people telling me different. I was told by so many people I was 'ugly', 'fat', and 'not good enough and never will be', to be honest, I began to believe it. I believed it all! So it's not that you don't tell me enough that I'm beautiful, pretty, it's.. me believing what people say. It's me doing exactly what I'm not suppose to be doing.. letting people get to me. So it's not you it's me.." I explain laying my head on his chest. I swallow the lump growing in my throat.

He nods, "If it takes me every day for the rest of my life for you to believe.. I'll do it." I smile and nod. I give him a kiss and we lay there for awhile, him brushing his hand through my hair. I was about to doze off when I heard his stomach growl. I laugh, "I'll make us some food.." he nods and we get up. He follows me into the kitchen and I make us Gainz. We sit at the table and talk for a few minutes. Emilio is still asleep and Max is gone, they finally finished the entire wall, they even got there room put how they wanted... I don't see the point for Ivan but, oh well.

We finished and I washed our bowls. "I'mma go now.." I say wrapping my arms behind his neck. He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me closer. "I'll miss you.." he says pouting slightly. I laugh and look into his perfect blueish eyes, "I'm sure you will." I go to say something else when I feel another pair of strong arms wrap around us. "Group hug.." Emilio says in his raspy voice. I laugh, "Good morning, Emi." He releases us and I release Ivan. "Where you going?" He asks stretching. "Ooouuu Emi!!! Check out them muscles!" I say teasing him by grabbing his arms. He smiles proudly and shrugs.