Title: I don't care
author: Ashley (me)
reader gender: Female
warnings': alludes to alcohol abuse for like 1\2 second.
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I don't care anymore, it's as simple as that. I don't care about them, the only thing I care about is the time I have left to be me.
You see, I was the most popular girl in school. I had friends that I thought would do anything for me. I had a boyfriend, the most popular guy at the school.
I was happy, or at least I thought I was because I didn't know better. now, I simply don't care.
my proof of not caring is everywhere, on everything, in everything I do.
My once long, silky, golden hair, yeah, I chopped it off with kitchen scissors.
I screamed when I was all alone. and I screamed until the neighbors called the cops twice.
And my liver suffered the damage of my rich fathers taste for expensive alcohol, but it was all I had to numb the pain.
so I went numb again and again, time after time.
this was all until I realize that everything, EVERYTHING, means nothing when you care to much. you see, I came to my senses and looked at what I had. what I lost.
when I saw how I lost it, I was in shock. I lost it because I cared too much.
I realized they were never my friends, and I was never being me.
it was like I couldn't breathe.
I was dieing because I wasn't true to myself.
but now. I don't care.
because I'm doing what is true to me, not them, me.
And now I am not going back to the old, not me, me... does that make sense?
I don't care about what they think, I'm doing everything for the people I can be myself around and for me.
besides, does it really matter in the end?
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hope you enjoy the monolog!
-Ashley
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