Back to square one | Vkook ff

Part 22

Taehyung p.o.v.

My eyes follow Jungkook who was heading towards the bathroom.

"I'm not sure how i feel," He whispers, leaving me by myself. 

I wanted to cry, but something about this situation felt like deja vu.

"You never do," I mumble, knowing he couldn't hear me anyways.

I was so used to being rejected by him that it had become a part of our friendship. Every kiss came with a price i had to pay, which was a broken heart. Crushed again and again. I lay down on my back, brushing my hair out of my face, a sigh escaping my lips. I reach for my phone, checking the messages i had been ignoring to not ruin the moment me and Jungkook were having.

Hoseok: And?
Hoseok: Does he actually love you this time?
Taehyung: Same story... he "doesn't know" ;(
Hoseok: Maybe you should just kiss him, make him realise what he's missing out on XD
Taehyung: I am not forcing myself on him Hobi... I want him but i'm at the point of giving up on him...
Hoseok: So you want to move on from him!?
Taehyung: Basically -_-
Hoseok: Want to go on a date?
Taehyung: Piss off...

I swipe back to my homescreen, opening my contacts. I knew it was wrong but i needed to talk to him. Now Jungkook was probably jerking off in the shower i had plenty of time to do so.

Taehyung: What do you have i don't have?
Taehyung: Why did he love you instead of me!
Taehyung: I envy you so much...everyone falls for you... everyone wants you..
Taehyung: He will never be mine... yet you had all of him!

"Tae! Mind to get me a pair of underwear!?" Jungkook suddenly exclaims.

I roll my eyes, leaving my phone on the bed. As i open his underwear drawer my eyes get distracted by the now opened box of condoms. 

"I fucking hate Jimin," I groan, still speaking to myself.

"Please bring me the blue pair!" He asks once more.

Obeying his orders i walk into the bathroom only to find Jungkook buttnaked in front of me. Causing me to drop the pair of underwear on the floor in front of me. Oh it's not like this is my first time seeing me naked, but it had been a while. By the bright bathroom lights i could tell he had been working out a lot more. Not only that, his wet hair looked so good brushed back. 

Shit he's so fucking hot.

"Yeah that's a penis," Jungkook smiles, grabbing the pair of underwear off of the floor.

For some reason i couldn't get myself to stop staring at him, making this whole situation so much more awkward.

"Tae? You are acting as if you never saw my dick," He adds, sliding on the blue boxers i provided him with, "I could be a calvin klein model don't you think."

I watch him strike a pose, getting me out of the trans he got me in.

"I'd subscribe to their magazine just for you," I joke, trying to hide my blushing face.

A silence follows, only the two of us staring at each other, not sure what to say to each other. His facial expression seemed a mix of confused and upset. He always covered his feeling up by joking around about it. It was easy for me to see right through him though, knowing he wasn't okay at all.

"Jungkook?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm going to go for a walk i think."

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Just wait till the next chapter ;)