Not Afraid

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today you found out.

we were eating lunch together at the cafe and my sleeve rode up just enough.

i knew you saw when you stopped mid-bite, your eyes getting a little too glossy.

lucy, you said as you reached over and grabbed my hand in yours before you examined my wrist more carefully. oh my god, why?

i thought it would make me feel less empty is what i said back.

did it work? you asked, a frown placed carefully on your face.

no.

then why did you do it again? and that's when i started to sob. you quickly pulled me into your side and kissed my temple, telling me that we'd get through it.

you said you were scared.

i'm scared too.