Life’s like this: you come then you go, you learn to love and learn to let go, you speak before you knew it wasn’t right, you drew until space is not enough, you miss but try again, you fail then you cry but sometimes you blame others, you hide when you feel your fears will strike you back, and this is what life is all about, you never learn how to forget.
Sometimes you remember the moments when one day you were all alone by yourself, sitting on the school bench and gazing at the building before your eyes. So this is his secret sanctuary! No wonder he’s an idiot, that Cedric. Tsk…tsk… he said he’ll make it up for me. Weird, he damaged my heart and now he’s trying to repair it. Stupid. Very stupid. And I’m stupid, too. I’m here anyway. I listened to him, that crazy moron. I want to call him all names. Maybe I could do it here. Maybe I could avenge my heartache here, where he considers it his sanctuary, ha ha. There I go again, dreaming. And just like what I always do when I realize I’m only dreaming, I cry. For my father who refused to call me his daughter, for my mom who would not look me in my eye, for my friends who turned out not to be, for all of them who decided to forget me, and for him who’s my best but thinks I’m his worst. I can’t help but laugh. Before, I kept on pleading the saints to touch my parent’s hearts to break the engagement but now I wanna be married to him; even if he doesn’t want, even if I do not love him, even if it will take away my happiness-just to have my family’s love back. I’d give anything in the world just…just…Here I am crying again and the only person who made me cry decided to make me laugh again. Crazy isn’t it? Well, he should know I’m no fool coming here for nothing. I will avenge this pain. I swear he will suffer big time and double. He should realize and experience this pain that he brought in my life. He should be ready for anytime I will do anything for me to take a bit of his life.
So, he’s crazy about this girl. She’s the reason why he broke our engagement. Ha! Got you! Look at me miss nice girl, I will be your friend, and your worst nightmare; I swear it on the heavens. I swear you will experience the same fate that I’m having right now. I swear you’ll pay for this, I swear you’ll cry hard, I swear…I swear…I promise to make you suffer for this heartache. And you, you Cedric Obano, will bend your knees in defeat. You will pray that you never did it; you will tell me that you want to come back to me; you will plea me for another chance. Tears escaped my eyes but I brushed them hardly away. I, instead, forced my face to smile and greeted her heartily. In my mind, a plan to curse her forever formed. But one man suddenly stole my thoughts from myself. That was you, Martin Arenas. I would have never forgave you because I thought you learned of my plan to destroy someone’s life until I came to realize you actually never had any idea of this revenge engraved on my mind. I smiled, this time, with reason. I found the man I’ve been long looking for, the man I will use to bring down this other man, hmmm, this sound like victory for me. Victory until I found out I’m blessed. I started making different reasons, I started to forgive him, started to be a real friend to her; all these I do because you came in my life. I saw myself in you while you are dumbly staring at her, while you unconsciously smile as she passes by, while you let time pass by just by staring at her. It made me sick, really; the sight of a man, a strong man, surrendering to a girl. I realized then my life isn’t as awful as you do. Here, I poured all my impulses to one woman hoping this will destroy the life of Cedric but you stood there, letting your life be destroyed because of her. I have never seen such weakness from a man. Considering you, I heard you are the campus king and the type who always-get-what-he-wanted in an instant. Funny, I caught your weakest spot. You’re crazy. I can even smell death once she rejects your love. Ha! You really are insane. You didn’t even experience a little bit of what I suffer now and yet you’re willing to give your life to this not-even-a-friend girl of yours. I dropped all my plans of retribution that day. If today you can’t handle even the sight of her, I’m quite sure you won’t value a piece of your life for her sake. I started to make inquiries about you.
