After Dunkirk

Chapter 1

Today's the day. After months of waiting I finally get to see my Alex again.

I'm feeling nervous, excited and happy all at the same time. I've missed him so much, not to mention the nerve racking part of not knowing what's going on with him on a day to day basis, but now we're finally here!

I'll finally get to see him. I want to know all the details and how he felt about everything happening, but I'm not going to put any pressure on that, I'll let him tell me when he's ready.

Right now I just want to see his face more than anything.

I'm cut off in the middle of my thoughts as I feel someone lifting me up. I'm totally caught off guard as I hear someone say "Miss me?"

Instantly a smile plasters over my face, I know that voice all too well.

"Alex!" I shriek as I latch onto him.

I latch onto him so fast that I almost knock him over but honestly I don't care.

I've missed him so much, and honestly I didn't know if that day he left would be the last time I say him.

"I'll take that as a yes." He says still hugging me. He's lost so much weight and looks worn out, but I guess what else can you expect from someone who's been in circumstances as such.

"Let's go home baby." He says to me and I nod. I'm sure there's nothing more he wants than to be able to return to his own bed.

When we get to the house Alex's eyes go immediately to the cake on the counter and a grin appears upon his face . "I figured since it had been a while since you'd like to have some cake" I say to him. He smiles back.

"Yeah jelly toast just wasn't as exciting anymore" he laughs.

Over dinner he tells me about his ride back home and how bad conditions were while he was out at sea.

We decide to go to bed pretty early as he's obviously very tired. He cuddles up close and that alone fills me with such happiness in that moment.

"I love you Alex." I've missed saying that and it feels like forever since I've been in his presence.

"I love you too Georgia." He falls asleep with his head on my chest and just as he always did before and I play with this curls until I fall asleep.

I can't breathe.

He's choking me, why is he choking me?

I'm trying to get him off but I can't.

"Die damn it!" He shouts at me.

His eyes are wild.

Who is this?

What's the matter with him?

"Alex stop!" I try and shout out as best I can almost out of breath. I'm finally able to kick him off me and all I can think to do is run to the bathroom and hide.

I'm trying my best to catch my breath.

"Georgia, please I'm sorry."

Is he okay?

I've never seen him act like this before. Then all at once it hits me. He must be having post traumatic stress.

I've heard people talk about this sort of thing happening but I don't know. I never thought it would happen to Alex, he was always so strong minded.

I slowly open the door and the look on his face is honestly heartbreaking.

"I didn't mean t-", I cut him of in the middle of his sentence and pull him into my arms drawing him closer to me.

"It's okay baby, I know. I know. Let's just go back to bed." I say to him.

I know this isn't something he'd ever purposely do to me.

Alex wouldn't hurt a fly, but it's obvious to see that the war has effected him in more ways I thought possible.

"Did I hurt you?" He ask as he looks up to me.

"I'm fine" I say as I try and give him a smile to let him know I'm okay.

I run my hands through his hair. His are curls drenched in sweat, that usually only happens when he has nightmares.

"I'm so sorry Georgia. I thought I was back at the war sites or something. You know I love you and would never hurt you right?" He says as his hand caresses my cheek.

"Of course I do and you don't have to apologize. I'm fine really."

I know this is something that was out of his control, but honestly I am kind of scared to fall asleep again.

I check the clock beside the bed post and notice it's only eight, yet Alex comes out of the bathroom fully dressed.

"I'm going out to run a few errands. I'll um...I'll be back later" he says right before kissing me goodbye.

I know him like the back of my hand and I know he's not going to run errands.

When Alex feels like he messed something up he tries his best to occupy himself to get it off his mind, but I'm not truly not upset, if anything I'm just worried about him. I mean like he couldn't help it.

I decide to start on some laundry until he gets back. Maybe I can fix dinner this evening so then we can really have a chance to talk.

It's important that he knows he can open up to me and that I'm going to listen and be there for him no matter what.

Alex POV

I can't believe I did that last night. In the moment though I didn't see her, I saw the enemy back at the docks.

When I snapped out of it I felt horrible.

I'd never lay a hand on a woman, especially not Georgia.

There's nothing I can think of that I love more than her.

I couldn't sleep good last night at all. I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I know she said she's okay but I know I could have really hurt her. I needed some fresh air.

"Alex?" I hear someone call and I turn around to see Nathan. We were some of the closest friends in school.

"I didn't even know you were back, how are you?"

"Somewhere between shit and okay I guess" I say and we both laugh.

"Ah mate it's been forever. We should go grabs some drinks up at McAllister's again just for old times sake, I'm buying."

I'm not going to lie a good beer does sound good, especially right now. Hopefully it can take my mind off things for right now.

"Alright sounds good mate." I just hope this doesn't get me into too much trouble.

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