Have You Ever?

Unexpected Feelings

Have you ever felt the urge to shut off from the whole entire world? Sit in your room and just lie there in the screaming noise of the dark between four walls, pitch black, and close your eyes. Suddenly you feel a hot tear drop burning through your eye and scorching down your cheek. Rolling..burning..

Have you ever felt that you just simply want to scream so loud and furiously but just can't? You open your mouth but nothing seems to come out. You have something to say but can't seem to get it out at all? Your chest is on fire, and can't put it out? You get this empty feeling in your guts, a pit in your stomach, where you feel that it's eating every thing inside out.

Have you ever wanted someone to just look at you and actually talk to you and feel what your feeling. You want them to stare into your eyes and ask you "Are you okay? Answer honestly." for the second time after you've said that you're perfectly fine but your face just says it all. You want to spend time with your best friend that understands you so well, and I don't know, maybe hug them (regardless of their sex) like it's the last day of your life. A way of thanking them for being there at all times and listening to you and handling your switch-in-moods moments. Just one person, one word, one action, one smile, one soul, one touch makes it all better.

Have you ever wanted to go somewhere with your friend far away from all the nonsense and just maybe relax and take your mind off your past for a bit. Have some fun, enjoy the life you have, and let it all go?

Have you ever felt that you want to let all your pain and emotions out of you and think "Maybe I should cut/self harm? That should make the pain ease for a while." Don't ever think of that. There are so many other ways you can express yourself. Dance, sing, paint, draw, write, swim, run, walk, jog, listen to very very loud music, for fuck's sake go jerk off BUT DO NOT EVER THINK OF BREAKING YOUR OWN SKIN. Your body is a masterpiece so don't ruin it.

Have you ever felt that no one will ever understand you or what you're going through? Don't worry,I have, and it turns out that some of your best friends might turn out to be exactly like you but just never say a word. DON'T EVER say to your friend "You'll never understand." Trust me, you can be surprised by what even the closest people to you have in common with you.