feelings

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"gale . hey . hey . hey gale . hey gale ." someone was shaking me awake . i rolled over to see corey standing beside my bed .

"what time is it ," i said , voice raspy and throat dry . i had a small headache but it wasn't too unbearable .

"no idea , but we need to get going ," she said . "cmon , get up ." i slowly got up as corey walked away and put my arms in the sky , stretching . 

"it's so dark outside my goodness is it still dawn ??" i said . mila walked up to me .

"maybe this would help ," she said , taking my sunglasses off . "dumbass ."

"oH ," i said , my eyes adjusting to the bright light streaming from the windows . i pulled my phone out of my pocket and scrolled through several missed calls from my mom and dad and a couple snaps sent from my streaks . i rolled out of the bed and dusted my shirt off . "when does this place open ?"

"soon ," adonis said , jogging across the store looking for something .

"whatcha lookin for there , bub ?" i said in a southern accent as i put my sunglasses on the collar of my shirt . adonis didn't respond , he was too busy scoping the aisles . i sighed . we slowly gathered our belongings and exited walmart with chase and blaine . after everyone had piled into the vehicles , we began the drive back to leavenworth . we found out tat both of them attended phhs and that blaine was on the basketball team . 

"WEVE GOT A GAME TONIGHT , YOU GUYS SHOULD ATTEND ," blaine said loudly as i blasted music from the aux cord connected to my phone . "KILLER SOUND SYSTEM BY THE WAY . AWESOME SUBWOOFERS ." i guess it was louder in the back because he was practically screaming in my ear . i nodded and yelled back .

"ILL BE THERE ." the song changed to a not so familiar tune and i looked down at my phone .

"what even is your music taste ," mila said , arms crossed as she gazed out the window

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"what even is your music taste ," mila said , arms crossed as she gazed out the window . 

"what do you mean this song is great ," chase said , jamming out in the backseat . mila grabbed my phone and scrolled for a minute before turning on a song with a fast beat she started clapping to . 

"WHAT TIME IS IT ," she screamed . no . no . no . NO . "SUMMER TIME . ITS OUR VACATION -" 

"WHAT TIME IS IT ? PARTY TIMMEEE ," chase and blaine yelled in unison . "THATS RIGHT , SAY IT LOUD!" (i know it's my fault but i hate this so much . im legit listening to this song on repeat to get the lyrics correct .)

"okaywhat . it's the middle of winter you fools i said , taking phone back . mila and chase did a duo as she turned it up , the terrible garageband - worthy beats rang in my ear drums . chase and blaine gave me directions to their houses which were side by side in a hella nice neighborhood . "suburban or whAT ," i said as they walked off . i waited for a reply from mila but she was too busy signing fabulous . we pretty much listened to each of the high school musical soundtracks for the rest of the ride until we got back to the cabin . (lowkey wanted to make the squad stay there until they get old but y'know .

"you need to play a sport ," mila said as i pulled into the garage . "or like play the piano or something ." i shrugged and turned off the mustang . 

"there's nothing here for me and piano sounds a bit boring ." i closed the door as mila followed behind me .

"what abouuttt .. lacrosse ? people who play lacrosse are usually hot ."

"welll im not hot . im gale ." she stopped in her tracks and stared at me . i smirked and continued walking .

"uhmmm since when do you have the authority to dad joke me ??"

"uhmmm i was only stating the facts ." she sighed obnoxiously and followed me through the garage door . all of us packed up our bags and got ready for departure . i sat in my room and went through my streaks . i opened one of my georgia friend's snap to see him and my other friends standing with each other in front of my old high school .

 i opened one of my georgia friend's snap to see him and my other friends standing with each other in front of my old high school

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i chuckled at bryce and breckin's faces and just kinda stared at it . i thought my mind had moved on and keep in mind im not exactly supposed to be the emotional one . i put in my earbuds and blasted just friends by g eazy . i got up and walked downstairs and stood on the back deck of the cabin and thought about stuff . i heard someone call my name then turned around and pulled out one of my earbuds .

"you okay , gale ?" i saw adonis leaning against the doorframe . i shrugged . he nodded and walked over to me and leaned over the deck . "relatable ." adonis and i spoke our thoughts , or at least i did . i told him about how georgia's memories were weighing my mind down and would eventually put me somewhere i wouldn't be able to recover .

"y'know that it's okay for something like that to hurt , right ," he said , looking at the sunset . i shrugged . "we all hurt , gale . some more than others . some barely at all . i mean we all have feelings , it's just that us guys have to carry the burden of feeling like we need to hide our feelings ."

"that is .. deep but helpful , i guess ," i said . he looked at me and shrugged .

"if you need to talk about anything else , im here for ya ." he walked back inside and i watched him leave then i turned back around to see the sun slowly  leave the horizon . 

short chapter yes but i just had some speed bumps while writing this

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short chapter yes but i just had some speed bumps while writing this . im really sorry it came out so late but i , along with some other people , are at a loss of words for a loss of a true brother . 

this is kinda deep and hard for me to explain , but whatever position you're in right now , please please please know everything will be okay . youll live on to tomorrow and so many people will be your shoulder to cry on if you're not ready to move on just yet . all of us have feelings , all of us have emotions and i know where you're coming from if you think you need to hide them . we were given friends because without someone to be there through the thick and thin , we wouldn't have made it this far so make use of the people who are there for you and share your feelings .

 i want to show people that hope is important . i want to show people that your most recent fun time will not be your last . i want to give people hope and happiness through writing this story by replaying the old times

stay thirsty my friends .

-camden 🎄

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