What I Found In This World

Kono Sekai De Mitsuketa Mono (What I Found In This World)

"Even though a future which the

two of us can run towards together

no longer exists anywhere,

I'll never forget your smile,"

-Kono Sekai De Mitsuketa Mono; Supercell

It was Christmas Eve.

I peered outside from the sliding window of a hospital ward and I could see the fluorescent glow of golden lights dancing in the evening background.

Tonight, the wind feels good as any other night...

The hospital courtyard was unnaturally empty and there were a few cars parked outside.

I sighed and closed the window. It was getting chilly inside the room.

Glancing at the person lying down the hospital bed, I couldn't help but feel grimaced at her condition. It had been like this for three years ever since that happened.

My heart was breaking...

Just by looking at her...my heart was breaking.

I don't want to see her like this...

That's because...

I love her so much...

Tears filled my eyes again and wiped it slowly as I noticed her waking up. She sat up and smiled at me with so much life with her almost lifeless body.

"You've been crying again, haven't you, Jack?" she asked me with her dry pale lips curving into a gentle smile.

I don't want her to see me like this...

I don't want her to see me giving up....

And so...

I smiled at her in return and parted my lips.

"No, I wasn't! It's Christmas Day! Why would I cry?" I denied, wiping my eyes in the process.

Then, she laughed. It took me by surprised.

How? How could you laugh like that?

How could you laugh when you're gonna leave me forever?

I wanted to tell her that but before I could, she spoke to me first as she wiped her tears of joy.

"You never change, Jack! You're such a crybaby!"

She exclaimed with a bright smile on her face and I couldn't help but frown. Well...that wasn't exactly polite, is it?

I didn't say anything so, she looked at me with those understanding blue eyes of hers and called my name.

"Sit beside me, Jack! I want to tell you something."

Curious, I followed her. Several questions popped in my mind, yet even so, I remained silent and sat on a collapsable chair beside her.

The smell of sweet peas from the ceramic vase next to me lingered inside the air-conditioned ward as I glanced at her with eyes red from crying.

"Do you know that Sweet Peas, in the language of flowers, means 'Goodbye'?"

She told me--placing her weak fingertips at the flower's limp petals.

I know why she's telling me this...

Pursing my lips, I shook my head and cried.

"Diana...don't tell me you're giving up! It's way too early! You still have--!!"