excerpts from a book I'll never write

it will hit you one day

I still remember the first time you said it like it was just yesterday. Tell me, did she get the same butterflies that I did, when you said it to her today?
Tell me, does her face light up with joy when she sees you after so long? Does she blush and smile awkwardly when you hold her hand and kiss her cheeks? How long did she wait for, to get your text today? How many nights has she stayed up wishing she was curled up next to you instead of sleeping alone in the cold bed sheets? When was the last time she stayed up till 04:00 A.M talking to you when she could barely keep her eyes open? Tell me, did she get worried sick when you didnt text her all day and she didn't know the reason?