Im just not that into you (Harry Fanfic)

Sorry

CHAPTER 18- SORRY

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It's been a few weeks since I've been out of hospital.Its also been a few weeks since I've seen Harry. I know I shouldn't bother with him after all the damage he's done but 2 weeks ago,someone left a gift outside my door.It was the exact book that Harry tore up and it even had the authors signature!!! I don't know how he got it but even if I hate him I need to thank him.It also came with a note and it said:

''Umm Hi

I guess you know who it is due to the present huh? What I did was the worst thing I could've done to you,Louis told me how much that book meant to you and when I found out I had to leave.I wouldn't be able to go school,knowing what I did to you.Im sorry,I'm more than sorry Isabelle.Fuck! I just wished I could've had more of a positive memory of you. I guess I may come back soon, kinda running out of places to sleep but I am truly sorry

H xx"

Where was he sleeping? I thought to myself throughout the weeks. I couldn't have the thought of knowing he's not at home because of me.But I can't do anything.

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"IM COMING SAM" I rushed around my room to find my bag. Samantha rang me and asked if I wanted to go to this cafe she always goes to. As I have no social life I obviously agreed. I ran downstairs and grabbed my beanie before dragging Sam out of my house to her car. " So where are we going?" I asked. "You know somewhere where I live" she smiled. I swear Samantha lives a hour away from here. " But I swear you live a hour away from here" I repeated but out loud. She smirked and started her car, minutes we were off and all I could do was let out a sigh.

"Are we there yet" I questioned her, I swear I've been in her car for hours. "Yes yes, We are here now Jesus I never knew you were impatient, eager much? " she laughed. "You mean hunger" I replied. As I walked out of her car I wondered where I've heard that type of conversation before. "Eager much" I thought to myself. "You mean hunger" my inner thought replied back . Oh it was with Harry.

"WALK FASTER" Sam shouted while holding the door for me . I thanked her before speed walking to the door. Once we went in, we sat in a secluded area, near a window. "Soooo" Sam trailed. I stared at her, signalling to her I was listening. "Did they find that crazy bitch yet??" She whispered. I don't know why she was whispering but I played along. "You mean Jess?" I also whispered back. She nodded. "No that crazy bitch is somewhere far away, I heard she shares a house with Amanda Bynes" I half whispered, half chuckled. I was trying to sound serious but it never worked, I looked up to see Sam looking at me with wide eyes. "DID YOU JUST MAKE A JOKE" she laughed. I started laughing with her, I didn't know why but I just did. " I going to order Sam okay" I said, still giggling. I walked to the counter and smiled at the cashier on the opposite side. "Your friends quite the character" the cashier chuckled. Is everyone making jokes without me knowing or something?. " Yeah I guess she's not normal, can we have two sausage rolls, 3 donuts and 2 cups of cappuccino please". After giving the change I looked around my surroundings, to see this place more in depth.

As I looked I saw this boy, well a scruffy boy with a cup next to his head . I couldn't tell who it was as his head was down but he had the exact hair as a boy I used to know. " Umm hey can you give the order to the table over there by the window please" I pointed out to the cashier. With a nod, I walked towards the source of my distraction. As I sat down opposite him, the sudden movement caused him to raise his head up. Wow! He looked rough. "Hey haz" I quietly said. He just stared at me blankly, did he know I was even there? "Isabelle" he croaked out. It sounded like he hasn't talked in ages.

" Why are you here talking to me, I fucked up, I don't deserve your breath"

He really wasn't kidding in that note was he. " I grabbed his hands and looked into his eyes. Automatically he turned away so he was looking down at the table. "Hey hey" I whispered as I slowly rubbed circles in his hand with my thumb. "At least look at me" I pleaded. He turned his head towards me and I saw in his eyes, how defeated he looked. " I wanted to thank you Harry, for the present you gave me. It was really sweet of you. Thank you for putting Chris in prison. You've done a lot for me okay, you need to come home" I pleaded.

"I don't deserve your kindness you know" he mumbled.

"You do Harry, I brought up some fucked up shit at the hospital, that was out of order. I didn't mean to say it at all and I'm glad I bumped into you, so I could apologise".

"Oh look, a sincere apology from you, never thought It was possible" he lightly chuckled.

"I guess Cheeky Harry never left huh?" I smiled. It's nice to have things back to how it used to be for a little while. But I still remember what he said to me. He told me he loved me. I don't feel any way like that to him but I wondered if he felt the same way.

"Umm Harry" I nervously called. "Yeah" he responded while frowning his eyebrows.I think he could tell I was nervous as he squeezed my hands, urging me to continue. "Do you umm you know still kinda love me" I shyly asked. "Does it look like I stopped loving you" he bluntly replied. Well I guess I know now. "But" Harry interrupted. "I know you don't love me I don't expect you too, I don't expect anyone to love me, I'm worthless okay. I deserve to be alone". Is this how badly he thought of himself? I couldn't let him think this way, I had to. I leaned over to Harry and whispered In his ear,"Please don't think of yourself, you're much more than that".

With that I gulped and slowly moved towards his face so we were now face to face. I looked down at his lips. What am I doing? Should I do this?

I ignored my thoughts and pecked his lips slowly. I moved back to see Harry stunned. " I I umm I did-" I couldn't even finish my sentence cos Harry surprised me. He grabbed my face and crashed his lips onto mine. I'm lying if I said I didn't like it.

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IM SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE

SOO MUCH HAS HAPPENED TO ME

MET 5SOS 6x

SEEN THE BOYS TWICE

SEEING THEM AGAIN IN JUNE

MY BDAY WAS 6 DAYS AGO

UPDATE WILL BE SOON