After the video (a ctfxc fan fic)

April 8th 2014
I sighed and closed the computer. I finally got the video right after six tries. I felt tears welling in my eyes but I swiped them away quickly. I groaned and slumped down in my chair. I can already see the comments now. the ctfxc will be enraged. after all, this came up right out of the blue.

It all started a couple months ago.
Alli and I were getting frustrated more easily and our patience was running thin. I would try and make jokes but she would always snap at me or roll her eyes. eventually we weren't happy anymore. we were growing tired of each other. that's why I was so elated for tour. I know that sound bad but I was just completely exhausted and this cucking fancer was wearing me out.

So finally I was on tour with we the kings livin' it up yet my heart yearned for alli so I decided to surprise her and come home a day early. little did I know alli had found another dog. Without my consoulance alli had welcomed this dog named Chico into our home. I was exhausted from tour and the last thing I wanted was a dog. so I tried to persuade alli to take it to a no kill shelter yet she refused.

It turned into a huge fight. I made alli cry and angry almost every day. eventually she got tired of it, and she had every right to I was a being a ass hole

Flash back
Alli walked in the door after her hair appointment
"Charles I'm home!"
I was sitting on the couch playing bioshock. "on the couch al" I replied
She set her purse down and walked into the living room. she plopped down next to me. I un paused my game and continued playing. "whatcha' playin'?" Alli asked "bioshock" a few minutes passed as alli watched me play.
"Hey char" she asked breaking the silence.
"Huh?" I mumbled not taking my eyes off the screen. "Where's chico?"

All the color disappeared from my face.
I guess alli noticed because she asked
"Char what's wrong?"
"Nothing" I said a little too fast.
My palms were sweating now and the controller was shaking in my hands.
"I think he's Umh in the bedroom"
Alli went to go find Chico
"Chico pico where are you" alli cooed in a baby voice. little did alli know that Chico had wandered off when I went to take a phone call and left the front door open. I tried to find him, I really did but he was long gone before I realized he was missing
"Char chicos not in here" alli said returning from the bedroom, a look of concern etched into her face.
I put down my controller and faced alli.
"Alli I don't know how to say this but I emh might have left the Umh door open and Chico escaped".
It took alli a second to register what I said and then it finally clicked.
Her eyes slowly grew wide and she put her hands over her mouth.
"Char how could you" she asked, the pain was obvious in her voice
"How could I what al?"
"You sold Chico didn't you" alli choked out as a single tear slid down her cheek. "what no!" I said taken aback that she would think that.

"Char I loved him" alli said her sadness slowly molding to anger.
"I know al I loved him too".
Allis face turned red and she lowered her hands from her mouth and balled them into fists.
"YOU DIDNT LOVE HIM CHAR DONT EVEN LIE TO ME RIGHT NOW, YOU FUCKING SOLD OUR DOG YOU ASS"
my eyes grew wide
"WHAT?" I shouted back
"YOU HEARD ME CHAR I KNOW YOU HATED HIM YOU FUCKING SOLD HIM DIDNT YOU?"

"NO OF COURSE I DIDNT, DID YOU NOT HEAR ME HE RAN AWAY!"
alli was now balling, I had never yelled at her before.
I realized what I had done and immediatly felt awful
"Alli listen I'm sorr-"
"You know what save it char" alli said while giving me a death stare.
"I am so fucking sick of you, you never think about what I want MAYBE I WANTED TO HAVE MY OWN DOG FOR ONCE AND HAVE SOME FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY BECAUSE I RELY ON YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!"

"YOU RELY ON ME FOR EVERYTHING? I CANT EVEN FUCKING DRIVE ALLI WITHOUT FREAKING OUT ABOUT ANOTHER SEIZURE, DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE ALLI? WELL DO YOU !? IT FEELS LIKE MY LIFE IS REVOLVING AROUND ME ALMOST DYING OR PASSING OUT OR GETTING SICK!"

alli was now shaking with sobs. what is wrong with me? I just yelled at my one true love like a maniac. I really fucked it up now.
"You know what charles I'm sorry to hear your little sob story but I can't live with this anymore, we're done"
It took me a second to realize what she was saying
Those words kept revolving Around in my head.
"What do you mean?" I whispered not wanting to believe what I was hearing
"You heard me charles I'm sorry but I can't live like this anymore"
I stumbled backwards and sat on the back of the couch. then I felt the first tear slide down my cheek, little did I know this tear was the first of many. I slowly lowered my head into my hands.

I felt as if someone had just slowly dug their nails into my chest, digging and twisting until they finally wrapped their fingers around my heart and pulled it out with one swift tug.
"So that's it? were done just like that?" I asked while keeping my head in my hands.
No answer
"I still love you" I choked out through my sobs
No answer
I slowly looked up.
She was gone.
Just like that.
No goodbye.
Just gone.

I tried to stand up but felt to dizzy. I Felt sick. I stumbled to the bathroom, clutching" onto anything for support. I couldnt see well because the tears stung my eyes. I felt my way to the toilet. I leaned over and vomited. it wasn't just vomit though, it was memories and love, kisses and dates, cuddling and long loving stares all gone just like that. after I was done vomiting I sat on the bathroom floor for what felt like years thinking about how bad I screwed up and how much I love her and how much I always will love her. I sobbed and screamed and punched and kicked the bathroom wall. when I was done I layed down out of exhaustion and fell into a deep, dark sleep

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Thank you SOOO much for reading and just an FYI I made ALL of this up like ALLLLL of it so please no one be offended and keep on reading thanks

-Mandy