|Damage||cth| -au- DISCONTINUED

|Twenty-Nine|

k guys I'm serious I'm legit gunna update everyday. I'm about to start school and like a normal person who should have goals to get straight A's & a 4.0 GPA...my literal goal for this year is to update everyday and finish this book by the end of the month. It's just really hard for me. It's not necessarily lack of inspiration. I just haven't really had motivation to write because of the negativity that has been the 5SOS fam lately. I now realize that at the end of the day, it's the music. It's literally all about the music and I know a lot of people who have left the 5sos fam for that exact reason and if anyone has felt the same way I do, honestly just remember that no matter what 5SOS does...they're people and at the end of the day we were all drawn to the music.

Dakota:

My sweaty hands gripped the stirring wheel as I was overwhelmed with guilt. I left Aria alone. She's three hours away from home and she didn't have anywhere to go. I was confused.

Just before Aria came out, Arizona was about to say something about their dad. It something that we don't ever really talk about. We didn't talk about it for a specific reason and I guess it was kinda like out of sight, out of mind.

"Don't you feel bad?" I finally asked. "She's your sister."

"Your point?" she rolled her eyes.

"She just had an abortion and you're sitting in here..."

"Aria just had an abortion and you're in here too so we're both at fault here," she snaps

Ouch...I guess I walked right into that one.

I averted my eyes from the road and looked at Arizona. She was curled up, knees in her chest, staring out the window. I knew she was thinking about it just as much as I was. Her hair sat in front of her face and she was so fixated on it like it had the answers to all our problems.

"What were you trying to tell me back in the clinic? Does that have anything to do with why she's so mad at us?"

"She's not mad at you. She's mad at me. The clinic...our dad works there and I knew the whole time."

"I thought he was in the US."

"Not anymore. He was there for a couple years, went to Rehab, finished school, and came back. Now he delivers babies, checks vaginas, and gives abortion with his wife and kid," she sighs. Not knowing what to say, my mouth forms an O and an inaudible sound.

"You said that you went to him to...ya know?"

"Yup..."

"Did he know it was you?"

"Yeah and he knew it was Aria too and Aria knew it  was him. That's why she's pissed. She gave me an opportunity to tell the truth and I didn't," she laughed.

"You could've told her," I immediately snapped. "You think this is a joke? We left her three hours out of Sydney. And if she doesn't get home, then what?"

"You're not perfect too. I'm not the one who fucked Calum yesterday."

"And I'm not the one who kept the identity of her fucking dad a secret. Blood's thicker than water, dumbass," I shook my head in disappointment as Arizona continued to laugh at me.