NovaHD - I'll help you (trigger warning)

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by smallshipper

by smallshipper

In this case Aleks has Schizophrania and James helps him..... I'm so sorry if its not on par with what the definition of Schizophrania is or if it leans more to depression but i think its ok

Aleks P.O.V

I was just trying to edit sunday simulator.... why won't He go away? I didn't do anything wrong, and He will only yell when I mess up.

Whats the matter? Having a hard time editing another stupid video for your stupid fans?
'Just ignore him Aleks he's not real, he'll go way just don't interact with him.
I'm in your head too fuckup. I can hear what your'e saying, your'e even saying it out loud.

Fuck. Am I? Everyone probably thinks I've gone crazy
Yes you idiot, they already think your'e crazy but this will push them to put you in a mental hopsital. And I hate hopsitals so if you get put in one I'm going to make your life a living hell. And will you look at me when I'm talking to you?

I look over at the thing that haunts my mind as he grins at me with a look that only satan himself can pull off. As I go to turn back around there's a knock at my (office) door. I look to Him and he nodds. Open it.

"Its open" I say without looking away from Him. "Hey" James. The one person who knows about Him. "Hi" I say finaly breaking my gaze from Him as James steps into my office and shuts the door behind him. "Are you ok?" he asks with a worried look on his face. "Yeah dude I'm fine" I smile. "Aleks..really" "Is it really that obvious?" Yes you worthless pile of shit. "shut up your'e not making the situation any better." I snap back at Him for interupting, but he does that often....

James doesn't even react anymore, since I live with the guy he watches me go through this daily. "I could here you talking to yourself outside of the door."

"........."

"Sly was afraid to ask you to get lunch with him earlier" "oh"
Now you've done it, didn't I tell you to keep quiet you little shit?! I just send Him a glare as he growls at me

"Aleks its getting pretty bad, I think we need to get you to a doctor or something" Thats when I lost it.

I shot up from my chair and had at it

"WHAT ARE DOCTORS GOING TO DO JAMES?! WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO DO FOR ME? THIS ISN'T A COMMON COLD MEDICINE WILL MAKE IT FUZZY BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE IT GO WAY IV'E TRIED ALREADY JAMES"

I sunk to the floor and started to cry on his shoulder as he caught me

"He doesn't go away James, my friends are afraid of me and I'm talking to a monster only I can see. I've gone insane and I just want out. I want help but the doctors I need will lock me up and strap me down and just as afraid of that as Sly is of me." James listened to all of that while I was looking at the laughing monster over his shoulder. Its not that simple, I plan to stick around Forever.

As I cried James tried to calm me down with reasuring words that i don't think he even believed, but as he said these things the monster looked a little smaller than before, and has stopped laughing but look scared as well. James continued to talk

"We'll get you through this

You have been through more than you diserve

We'll find a way out of this

Don't worry, I'll help you"

I tried ok I'm sorry I know, its bad, and not even really Novahd but I guess it been a long ass time since the last chapter so yeah....take 4 am shit I'm sorry