Falling To Pieces

Fear

-Elsa-

I walk through the icy walls of my castle, truly fit for an ice queen such as my self. Today is the last day I stay here and as the moon's light shone in my castle I sigh, this is the sixth year anniversary of Jack's death, I sob, exactly six years and there seems to be no hope for me to move on. I stare up the moon with ice tears running down my cheek.

"You're always there for me, or at least I hope you are. Even though I could've saved you, I refused to come with you... I'm to blame for your death."

"Oh, Elsa. It wasn't your fault why he died."

I spun around in shock as I see a man in a long black robe, face in a shade of gray and eyes piercing gold. I stare at him with shock as he gave me a sympathetic smile.

"Elsa, I was here for you, I still am. I am your fear but I don't want you to fear."

"What? You're my fear?" I shook so badly that I could feel my own teeth vibrate, I was so scared and he sensed this, his sympathetic smile not disappearing, my heart seemed to beat faster as pure nervousness and fear took over and I see him in front of me, he caressed my cheek and I press my cheek on his hand.

"Elsa, dear. I don't want you to be afraid. Your fear will only repeat itself."

"What do you mean?" I asked him as he smiled down at me, a sad smile.

"When you fear to lose someone you will, like when you fear to hurt your sister you ended up hurting her instead of protecting her, but that's fine, she's okay now. You would never hurt her any more."

"I won't?" I looked up at him full of hope and he pats my head, he makes me feel comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time yet I don't know why.

"Yes child, yes. But I fear that there is another fear in your heart."

"What is it?" I gasped.

"To lose Jack again."

"But I already lost him, it was my fault why he's gone. I should've gone ice skating with them, I might have saved him."

"Shush now, Elsa." He lightly stroke my head and I felt safe. "I don't want you to fear, I might represent fear and people all around the world hate me but I didn't want to be like this, I want to be believed in but I feared that no one would and now my fear made me to this. I became fear."

"I believe in you!" I shot out, whoever this man is, he had made it to my heart.

"You do?"

"Yes! I do!"

He stroke my head and smiled a sad smile.

"Thank you very much child, I don't want you to end up like me so I am warning you."

"Warn me about what?" I felt weak, like a child seeking for my parent, and this man is now representing as my parent, appearances can be deceitful for I thought this man was bad but it turns out he cares.

"I don't want you to become like me, indulged with fearing so much that I became fear. Listen to me, Elsa. You're fear will only grow, there is danger in it and also great sacrifices, you must learn to defeat it."

I gulped as I listened to him.

"Your Aunt, Uncle, and cousin will be visiting you in a days time, when you get back they would be there but to there company is a man, a man who looks so much like your Jack."

I gasped, a man that looks like Jack? I stared at him confused as I shook my head.

"How can that be?"

"I don't know myself, dear child. I won't be there to help you when you need me so listen, his name is Jack Frost, see? He even has the same name. Your fear will happen again as you see yourself lose Jack again, in the most horrible way possible."

My heart ached, so much that I could kill myself, but he stroke my head to calm me down, and it did, but only a little.

"Don't get anywhere near him understand? Don't fool yourself that this is the Jack that you once lost. Do you understand? Please say you understand."

"Y-yes, I do."

"I am worried for you, Elsa. You might slip and fall in love with him for he is so much like your Jack, but remember, do not get near him. It will only hurt, avoid any kind of contact as much as possible. When you really really need me I will be in the darkness. You are always welcome to join me."

He stroke my head and smiled at me one last time and turned to walk away.

"No! Please don't go! I don't even know your name!"

"Its Pitch my dear. Pitch Black. Fits me doesn't it?"

"It doesn't."

He smiled at me once again and disappeared in the darkness.

I was so scared, if what he said was true then I don't want to go back, but Anna... Caddie was with mother and father, she also brought Olaf so that she wouldn't get bored, they stayed in their old house for the time being so I don't have to worry about her hopes getting up, but still... no, I need to face my fear. Pitch warned me and instructed me the things I needs to do, plus they might just visit, not stay. Yes just a visit, they're not staying. Pitch, thank you.

I took a deep breath, the moon still shone but it was time to leave, I need to be prepared for anything and everything that's going to happen. I sigh in relief as I thank myself for leaving work, I have a lot of work to do, that should keep me busy until they leave.

Now, I just need to survive tomorrow and nothing will go wrong. I felt queasy, wow, the last time I felt like this was at my coronation day.