my boyish love

FINALLY ACCEPTING IT

so i accepted the fact that im not getting april off my mind,atleast not any time soon so i decided to step up our relationship from acquaintance to atleast friends."i could approach her directly if only she wasnt surrounded forever by her friends.what do they talk so much about anyway?i could get help from shane and austin but not without them thinking i was a nut case i mean honestly its been barely 2 weeks since i came here and obviously there is the fact that she has a boyfriend.oh forget it"i shut my locker trying to shut my useless thoughts with it,the bell rang i turned and neatly ran into april of course it had to be her,i bend down to pick up our books as she apologised for being so absentminded"im so sorry i should have paid more attention"she stated sheepishly,"its ok i should have looked up,im sorry"i stated as i handed her the books trying to look as relaxed as possible the exact opposite of what i was feeling inside.my heart beat like crazy i cleared my throat as i could feel it closing up her vanilla caramel scent was clouding my brain,"ok calm down she is just a classmate"i told myself ,she smiled and the cold shudder racked me up thoroughly,ya right hell with the calm down thats never gonna happen."zac right?"she asked, i snapped myself back into reality,"ya,ya i am ,um april isnt?"i said like i had no reason to remember her name at all,she nodded,"well come on,lets get to class"she said,i matched my pace with her,"so how is it going so far?"she asked "good just you know getting along"i said "are you trying out for anything,like i mean soccer or quiz teams?"she asked looking at me quizzically,"didnt think about it yet"i answered truthfully,she nodded as we reached our class she turned and instantly i was mesmerised by her eyes,there was something about it,but before i could figure it out,"well see you around" she said as she walked away to her desk.i slumped into my chair,i got the perfect opportunity to impress her and all i did was stutter and give her the impression that im good for nothing well good going zac,wonder why she hasnt fallen at your feet yet i thought disgustingly as i flipped my book only to find it wasnt mine.

i stood nervously in front of her desk before i could catch her attention from her very interesting conversation she was having with her friends,she looked up quizzically "um our books got switched"i explained as i showed her the book i was holding with her name neatly written on the front cover,"oh ya ryt our books look almost identical"she laughed as she gave my book back"thank you,oh and these are my friends natalie,jessica and samantha,and this is zac"she introduced us as i shook hands with each of her friends i could feel their gazes sizing me up.i smiled as politely as i could,"everyone settle down"our math teachers boomed out as he entered the class as i took my seat i wondered just how weird i would have seemed in her friends eyes because i was pretty sure i didnt take my eyes off april the whole time i was there.idiot,i smacked myself.this infactuation was killing me.