Shut up and just listen

Part 1

Who spends a whole year drooling over someone, who doesn't even look at you.... you did dumbass.

After staring at the picture of my wanna be guy for another minute I finally log off of Facebook only to log back on and deactivate my page.

Just take a week break​. This isn't healthy for anyone. Tho like, to be honest it is your fault. You wouldn't be hurt right now if you weren't checking, correction, STALKING his page. It's summer, he's single and damned hot, of course he's gonna find and attractive girl to occupy his time. Well that sounds harsh, we don't know her, but still.

I put my phone down on the bed and lay back. I should do something. Any thing to distract my fast mind from jumping to all of the conclusions.

Maybe that's why he doesn't look at you. He has a girl back at home. He obviously likes girls so we just don't cut it for him. She looks mature too. And probably athletic...

Fuck this, I need to move around. Packing. Yes, let's pack.... where the hell do I start. This is my junior year of college, so I should have a good handle of packing, however, here I am 3 days before move in day and nothing packed.

Clothes ..... No.....Bedding...house things.... I hate packing.

My phone rings and I see it Terry.

" Hey"

"Sup, sooooo wanna explain me why you are nowhere on Facebook anymore? Something you wanna tell me? Your just gonna block people and not say why" Terry sounds like a banshee by now

I look at the clock.  It's only been 5 minutes since I deactivated

"Clam down. I was going to block you I would have expose your dark secrets first. I deactivated my account." I retorted

" Oh. Well then warn someone next time. When are you turning it back on... Wait why?" She asked

Oh shit

" I'm finally calling quites on Dean" I attmit

She stays quiet for a minute, I take this as an opportunity to change the topic.

" You know I haven't packed shit. I'm gonna be crying if I leave this until the day of"

" Oh I see it now," Shit of course she when snooping " but see you've said this multiple times, so are you really doing it this time?"

"I have too. It's not like we have anything anyway. We've never talked or anything so it really shouldn't be this hard. It's only because I spent so long watching him. But yes. I need to move on. This is a huge ass school. There has to be someone who would want me." Im starting to babble and it's starting to sould less convincing even to my ears.

" Ok, if that's what you want. Don't worry about it, we're both going in as new woman this year so you're not alone."

" Thanks Terry" This is why I love her

" Now GO START PACKING. I DONT KNOW WHY YOU WAITED SO DAMN LONG. WE MOVE IN IN 3 DAYS. GOD, DONT MAKE ME HAVE TO COME AND KICK YOU ASS. AND IF YOU THINK.." I pull my head away from the phone to try to save my ear drum.

" I'm packing. Bye" I yell into the phone and hang up.

Ok packing .