so sorry.

a week before school .

Hi. My name is Kayla. This is basically a diary , I guess you could call it. So , basically, what I'll be writing about is my life, things that happen, things I want to let you in on I guess. I know I am not the best writer, as you can see, and for now, I'm not sure where I'm going for this but, I wanted to do something different . So basically now, I am going to tell you what I am going through now. (This is not a pitty party like oh, "I need attention" or something like that ). Anyway, I have no idea where to start first. But basically I was listening to twenty one pilots,  the no pun intended album. And I was just thinking to myself. It's currently 11:39  at night, I'm trying to sleep earlier so that's why I am listening to music to sleep since school is coming soon. Anyway, I was just thinking about school. My best friend, is now going to a different school. I won't say her real name for privacy reasons, so we will say her name is ari, short for ariana because she loves her haha. Okay so,  ari is going to a different school, and she is practically my only close friend. Sad right? I know I shouldn't care what other people think, but it's kind of hard when your whole school is filled with judgmental Mormons. So as I was thinking about her not being there for me in the new year coming,  I started thinking about how my plans might not go the way I want them to, and my parents want them to. So, I was kind of freaking out because the past 2 years in middleschool weren't the greatest. Mostly because I skipped class alot and I got suspended in 7th grade for vaping with a girl. Besides the point, I got horribly bad grades through out both the years. And now my parents expect 100% to be given this year. And that's what I am going to try to do. But going to a straight f student to a straight a student may not be as easy as some think it might be. Then again, maybe I am just being overly ...whats the word.. sensitive? I guess?  But yes, I have found myself crying at now, 11:50 at night because of the following, #1 , no friends #2, parents expecting this from me. 3? Maybe the fact that I am a depressed fuck. And there you go. That's all for tonight.

Date: wed, August 9th, 2017.