Thoughts

The End Is Where We Begin

I sat I'm my lab trying to think of another way to help my Master. It hurt to see him so weak, feel how delicate his power was. I didn't want to be left alone again, only Master seemed to understand it. What it was to be so different from others.

I'm not human and not any other race on this planet. Then I'm an alien Cause I'm not of this world. Just something that has no proof of its existence.

I have a name but is that really proof as we give names to things we cant prove. I had another name once before all this. When I was but an ordinary human. But then I've been changed, and now I can't stay the same. I couldn't stay innocent to the lives lost to the others.

I couldn't do anything to help before but even now I cant do anything to help the ones I hold dear. I feel so helpless and like I'm a loser. That's right I must be, if that means I've been lost before.

But I'm not alone like then, it took me so long but now I found it, I'm surrounded by the ones I was searching for. In this place so filled with other living beings, Cause you can hear them no mater what time of day. The laughter and voices and the way it sounded around me.

Like angels singing with a million voices, they brought out a piece of me I didn't know. The end of my human life is where we begin. Were I started to feel like I was an outsider. I'd never forgive my master if he left me but would I be able to keep going. It's likely that I wouldn't be able to walk let alone be able to be crawling back, when he dose leave me.

What would happen if I made him leave with me. If we run away, run away from all that could hurt my Master. He would never do it. Master would never leave this life I have built for us. Cause he would think it was his fault if anything happened to this place. Then it would be the end again and he would want me to carry on. Would want me to keep this place where a new life started. This is where we begin, In this life and I knew it would be were I would start again.

But I would have to keep going on and this would be the place. The place where broken hearts mend and start to beat again. Where both mine and who every is left will have to heal.

This place is it. This place will be the end but it is where we will begin again. I got up not wanting to be sitting down any more. Would I last without m Would I last without my Master. I'm a monster. A person who can kill without hesitation. I didn't kill people who didn't deserve it if I could help it but that sometimes meant I was looked at wit cold eyes. Even if I Knew that they didn't know better. That it means I'm misunderstood. But it didn't mean that there wasn't part of me that wasn't a monster. Cause there was, its alive and I can't hide it. That very part of my soul.

I felt the energy from the Dark spear. It is rising inside me, as my thoughts darkened and lost control. I'm a traitor to humans and all others. If I had a way to save my Master then I would do it in a heart beat even if that means I've turned on myself. On what I believe in. I can't deny it, it's like a riot with all these thoughts of what I would do to others to make sure I could stay with my Master. How would I get back to my self. I should tell them that I wasn't who they though I was. It wasn't like me and I can't keep it quiet about it.

Master would be able to set me straight. His presents alone was like angels singing with a million voices. His aura was the end but is where we begin. Were we both met each other. It's were I will always be crawling back when I need something. When I need to know I'm not just a monster that we run away from, that others run away from.

Cause Master is the end And is where we begin. Master is my whole life and where broken hearts mend and start to beat again. He is the end of life and is where we begin to live again. I got up not wanting to be in this house right now. I left not looking at anyone as I past. Once away from the house it took off. I could hear me running. Hear me trying to escape from my self by running, running away from the very thing that was keeping me together.

I could Hear me, not the monster. The monster would never be heard running, but I Could hear me running, ra-running like a lost child trying to find home. Hear me running, but no one could hear me. I would be alone in a few short years when Master left me. It be the end but would it be a start, would this be where we begin. Were the monster would get lose. It's never going to end its killing once he's gone. I would never be able to be crawling back when Master still had me.

We would always be running away, running away from life and into the darkness. Cause the end of life is where we begin. Were we would lose ourselves, myself.

There would never be a place where broken hearts mend and start to beat again once all was no longer living.

I looked out over the city. If I was nobles these very thoughts would get me killed by my Master but since I wasn't he couldn't do anything. But he knew I wouldn't acted on them. No while he still lived.

Master would always be the end Be he would is also where we begin, where I would begin. He would always be my safe place. His very presents I would always come back to.

It's the place I would always crawling back to even when we run away, run away myself. Ran so I could lose the monster. Cause he was the end and is where we begin. Where broken hearts mend and start to beat again. The end is where we begin.

Master landed behind me, nothing more then a whisper. I didn't turn. Didn't want him to see the monster in my eyes. The monster I knew would be unleashed upon his death.