Makeup remover wipes S.M.

Chapter 3

I won't sleep with him, I haven't even talked to him since I got home. He knows why I'm mad, so he's sleeping on the couch. Andrew called me today during a meeting because Shawn's phone was plugged in and he was watching the kids so he didn't hear it, Andrew told me all about Shawn's move to New York. I even got his address, I just wish I hadn't. "Hey princess?" He pushes the door open gently. I let my eyes shut softly and I pretend as if I'm asleep, he gives a sigh and crawls into the bed behind me. "I know you don't want me around," he mumbles thinking I'm asleep. "But I can't sleep out there."

"Go away," I mumble, he sighs standing and walking out of the room. He leaves tomorrow and he's temporarily moving to New York, I don't know for how long and quite frankly I don't care. I'm so mad at him nothing could change my feelings. He's abandoning me for god knows how long, I'll be left with four kids all by myself and we were just looking at adopting another.

"Reese I was just wondering if you'd let me," I shake my head at him but it doesn't stop him. "I just wanna hold you before tomorrow." He slides into the bed with me bringing my head into his chest. I kick and I claw at him and he sighs. "I'm leaving for," I stop him not letting him continue or listening to what he says after. "I love you princess and nothing's gonna change that."

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Every piece of my wanted to kick him out last night but I didn't have the heart to do it, I just wanted to cuddle him. He's leaving me for a long time and I just don't know what to do, I wanna stay married but Andrew says we should both just go back on the market, that's what everyone else says too. I think he's on board with it which is a little heartbreaking so today I've decided we'll be divorced, he wasn't happy but realized what he's doing to me hurts and that he wanted to go back on the market so he's doing it. It took less than twenty minutes of persuasion. "You're now officially divorced," the judge hits her gavel and I nod rushing out of the building. The faster I get home the less and less I'll have to speak to him.

"Do you really want this?" He asks again, he's been asking me all morning and he knows I don't but I do it for him. He's my only love and I want the best for him and if divorcing is what's best than it's what's best. No body knows yet, maybe I'll tell them later maybe Shawn will tell them all right away, I don't know yet.

"I didn't want any of this," I shake my head walking towards my car, I left earlier than him so he had to take his own car here even though he wanted to take one together for what would've been our last car ride together. He's leaving and we're divorced there's nothing I can do about any of it now. I'm gonna miss him but I know he'll find someone else, probably someone better.

"I'll see you at home," he smiles and I scoff driving off. I don't wanna call it home any more, if it is a home it's a broken one. I can't fix it now, Mercy's gonna be broken the man she's learned to love, the one who gives her all of her nicknames and the one who loves her unconditionally is up and leaving her. She packed a bag last night she thinks she's going with him. "I beat you?" He giggles while I park into my parking space, I blankly ignore him and walk into the building. "Hey," he calls but still I ignore running up the stairs while he waits for an elevator. I get there before him and slowly I enter the condo leaving the door unlocked as I took the keys with me. "You beat me this time," he smiles.

"Stop it," I groan walking off the kids sit with his parents while I remove my ring setting it back in the black velvety box it came from. I stare at it with deep sadness.

"Hey you two what's the matter?" His dad shakes his head, I can no longer call him my dad, his parents are some of the nicest people I've met though and they're so much fun it's a shame that this is how our relationship will most likely end. "Stop the arguing," he points. "Now what's the matter?" Shawn tries to hug me as if I were just overreacting about something but I push him away.

"We're divorced," he sighs slumping on the couch with them while I sit at our table.

"Why are you divorced?" His mother gasps and I look down wiping my tear filled eyes. "You were such a happy couple, Shawn's travelling shouldn't ruin that." I shake my head and he sighs.

"Andrew said we should both just throw ourselves back into the single life and Shawn agreed so we divorced." I sigh a little while our boys bury themselves in their dad cuddling Mercy as well they're convinced she's going and I don't know why.

"Poor thing," Aaliyah towers over me too, everyone does. At the age ten my growth was medically stunted. It was to make everyone's life easier with the brain conditions I suffer. I've suffered certain conditions since I was young and others are new.

"He'll be alright," I nod at Shawn. "I'm sure of it." She rolls her eyes and squeezes me.

"I'm talking about you stupid." She chuckles, I nod and sigh all at once. I'm gonna miss his bear hugs, and his soft papery kisses, the smile he brought with him everywhere he went, and how he wore a guitar pick on a chain around his neck every day. I'll miss his smell while it'll start to fade over time and I'll miss the love he once gave me, the love we once shared the now broken love that can not be repaired.