i miss you

day 365?

Hello, This could be my last letter to you. It's been about a year or a year since you've disappeared from my life, and well. Maybe it is time for you to be forgotten.

I found out some stuff about you that honestly caused me many thoughts and doubted about what we felt for each other. You know I didn't think you left me for someone else. Much less did I expect it to be for your first love. Apparently you had had an unexpected encounter with them.

You had compressed the feelings you had for him for so long.... And you didn't tell me and you didn't tell him either.

It had been hard for you two since both your families did not support your love for each other rather looking at it as a close friendship. I hope you're happy with him.

He seems very handsome and caring. I still ponder about the reason why you still were with me....

As in why did you still act like you loved me? Why did you tell me you loved me when in reality you were in love with him?

I don't know the answers but I hope one day I'll finally be able to ask and get some answers.

Since you've been gone I've met a guy. He's my best friend remember him?

The one who gave me a ride when you couldn't because you were in the hospital having surgery. The one who brought you flowers everyday and brought me flowers too. The one we've always been in touch with yet after we moved in did he suddenly lose contact. Remember him?

Well he had apparently been so busy with his work that he had to stop almost all communication but due to his hard work he is now a founder of a big company. Years go by fast huh?

Well he came back and well he's kept me company ever since.

I'd cry to him about you. I'd mutter curses under my breath when I couldn't figure out why you left. I would embrace him when he'd plant seeds of hope for when you could possibly arrive.

Without you here I had realized many things.
How life still continues. How life is just as beautiful as before. I might miss you and you might be out of my reach but I think it's okay. Because I truly loved you.

And that's okay that you left for someone who you loved.

That's why I'm leaving for someone who I love.

-xo the one you once loved