Attached to you || Book One || Bellarke Story

Chapter 8|| 4 years

BELLAMYS POV

It's been 4 years since praimfaya. And the spacekru had one more year to go.

Murphy and I became very close. We were more like brothers than friends. But we both didn't say that of course.

I was still writing letters to Clarke. I do it every day. And if I don't I think I would lose mind. In total I wrote more than 700 letters to her. And I keep them save in a locker. So one day I could show it to her. If I come down.

Because Raven still don't has a way to fix the rocket. The rocket damaged on the way here. She tried many things but everything so far faled.

I closed myself off from the group. The rest was at the luxury part of the ark and I was in the prisoners part. I was alone but it didn't care much. I could care free write to Clarke.

No one knows about the letters. I like to keep them a secret I don't know why. They all think I finally got over clakre. But in reallity I could never go over her. Not when there is a small chance she is alive.

Every day I write so this day too.

Dear Clarke,

It's been 4 years since praimfaya. And I still write you everyday. Maybe it's a way of staying sane. Not forgetting who I'm. Maybe am I just losing my mind. I see you everywhere you talk to me and hug me. And each time again I think it's real. But then I brought back to reallity and your gone again. I miss you clarke. I miss each and all parts of you. I miss your eyes that made me tell if something was wrong or you were just happy. I miss your lips that look so soft. I miss your determination. I miss your faith in people. I just miss you. And I hope that reven will fix the rocket.

Love Bellamy

"Yeah I hope that too."

I looked startled around and ofcourse I say Murphy. As fast as I could I put the letter away.

"No need to hurry. I already read the whole letter." He said while he smirked.

I could't bring one word out.

"Yeah you know I miss her too. And I'm glad you found a new anchor then you don't have to enoy me anymore." He said with a laugh.

"Enoying you is my job I can't stop that." I said

"Ofcourse bellamy ofcourse. But what are you writing."

He saw it already so there was no denying in it.

"Well it is a letter to Clarke."

"Bell I know that already come on with the juicy stuff."

"Bell huh? Are we on nicknames now."

"You know what I mean. Now come on."

"Well there is not much juicy stuff." Yeah I miss her and I love her but thats it." It just flopped out of my mouth without thinking.

"You love her he. Well thats a new one." He smirked

" euhm...euhm no.. I didn't say that"

"No denying it you said it."

"Okay then I love her is that so weird. She kept me centerd. She cared for me when I needed her the most. She became a piece of me. Is it then so weird I love her?" A tear felt on my cheek

"No my friend it's not." He said while he laid his hand on my shoulder.

I hope you like this chapter I think im going to write about 12-15 chapter. I don't know yet. Pleas leave a vote and comment. And im sorry for any gramma mistakes.