It's Not My Fault

"I'm what?" I manage to stutter out.

I can feel my hands shaking. No scratch that my whole body's shaking. The doctor nods his heads as the first of many tears fall.

I should've known better! I'm a smart girl! Well I was until this happened...

It was one time.

One glorious, magnificent...

Stop it Connor!

I shouldn't have done it. I should've been smarter. I'm a terrible person.

Although it was his fault. Not mine. He was the one who kissed me. He was the one who wrapped his arms around my waist and softly left kisses behind my ears and on my neck.

I just let it happen.

All I can think is my mom's gonna kill me. My mom is going to kill me.

I don't know what to do. I want to go over to his house alone scream and yell at him until I'm not mad.

But you're never gonna get over this.

I usually fought him about it. He wanted sex and I would say no. The first time in history I say fine we can do it, I end up pregnant.

Pregnant god dammit!

I could tell something was up. I kept throwing up, I was having awful stomach cramps and I was gaining weight. Not a lot, but I was gaining weight.

When I went to the doctors because I thought I had a really bad case of the stomach flu, the doctor gave me the unfortunate news.

I can't believe that me! Connor Taylor, 15 year old sophomore, straight A student is pregnant.

All the stupid little sluts are just fine having sex every night and never having any problems. But not me! I lost my virginity and ended up pregnant!

The doctor says I'm about three months in already! In six months I'll have a baby! A baby for gods sake!

James isn't coming back. I haven't seen him since that night. He abandoned me for a girl who constantly wears short shorts that show off half her ass and tank tops that cover basically nothing.

Now he's going to be a father and he doesn't even know it.

I can only think of one person to tell about this. And she isn't going to be thrilled. My best friend, Grace.

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"Connor what the hell! Why didn't you tell me before?" Grace yells at me after I tell her the news.

"Well I kind of didn't know until after school yesterday," I say back calmly not really wanting to argue with her.

"You could've texted me! That would've been faster huh?" She rolls her eyes and eats some soup from the lunch tray she's holding.

"Gracie, this was something I needed to tell you in person okay? You're the only person other than me and my doctor that knows about this. You should feel pretty damn special,". Her jaw drops.

"Your mom and dad don't know? You tell your mom like everything!" She kind of yells.

"This is different. You can't tell anybody okay? If you do I will like die," I say being completely honest.

"Why would I tell anyone? So wait who's the dad?" She asks impatiently.

"It's James... He doesn't know and I don't plan on telling him anytime soon," I say to her. Her eyes get wide.

"You guys did it? Woah," she raises her eyebrows at me and I roll my eyes.

"Naw shit Sherlock," I say sarcastically.

"That's just.. Wow, I don't know what to say," Grace looks just plain shocked.

"I'm already three months in," I tell her. Her mouth forms an "o" shape.

The bell rings and I look at her for a second.

"I'm gonna go so I'm not late... Bye Gracie," I wave slightly and the shocked expression doesn't leave her face, "Grace?".

"Oh yeah right. Uhh.. Bye," she gets up and walks off.

Well that went well.

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Hey you guys thank you for reading the first chapter!! I hope you enjoyed! Ilysm!

-Soph c: