It's been four years since Justin ditched me. It's been about two years since my dad left. Everyone leaves. I don't get what I did to make everyone hate me. I've lost everything the last four years: my childhood, my sanity, my best friend, my father, my boyfriend, everyone, everything. I have my mom and my brother; that's it. I'm just confused and lost. And I'm not sure how I'm not find gonna my way again. Nothing has made sense since Justin left. He was my world, my everything. I'd do anything just to talk to him again.
My boyfriend? He cheated on me with my new best friend, Andie, and broke my heart. Besides that, I have always had trouble with certain kids at school, and I have never actually felt confident in myself even though people would view me as a confident person.
Once my ex ditched me (I had been in the "popular" group) all my other friends did too. They bullied me. They harassed me. Boys talked to me and touched me in ways they shouldn't have.
Everyone hates me. So many people have told me to go kill myself, drink bleach, try to overdose again, slit my wrists, "die in a hole"—you name it. I've heard it all. Bitch, slut, cunt, whore—names I get called everyday. They call me attention whore just because they saw the cuts on my arms when I reached for my phone after they snatched it from my hands one day. I don't know why they do it. I never did anything to them. But I guess I don't deserve better treatment.
I've had night terrors for years, but they've only gotten worse. I've been insecure my whole life but never talked about it. I was bullied but never stood up for myself. I still get bullied. And I still don't tell anyone or stick up for myself.
I sometimes will be going through old things and find pictures of my ex-boyfriend or little notes he gave me in class. I often read the old conversations between the two of us and feel joy for just a second—until I realize that that's in the past, and he doesn't give a crap about me anymore. I realized long ago that he never really loved me. Nobody did.
•Everyone who said "I'll always be here for you," left.•
Note: Story may contain adult language and content. Some scenes may not be appropriate for young readers.
Rated PG-13
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Lost Without You (Justin Bieber Love Story)
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