Saturday, April 12 2014
I sit in the car with my dad wanting to get home.
Today was ruff.
Today sucked dick.
Today I got made fun of my Dad, who I truly love, twice.
He probably didn't mean to hurt me.
But I'm here in the back seat crying silently trying to control my breathing.
Nobody loves me.
And these fucking bumps on the road are pissing me off because I'm trying to type this.
Oh also great news!
I went to my Grandma's house in the woods.
I went to the woods to find some stuff I could make for my cousin, Shayne.
Turns out my Dad is so excited about my upcoming half-baby brother that he forgot about me.
He teases me for being a vegetarian.
I want to cut but, my Mom is going to take me swim suit shopping and will question me if I don't want one.
I am going to live alone when I'm older.
No children.
No spouse.
No family ether.
I will do exactly what a song called 'Hate Me' by Blue October says.
"And I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind. And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind."
I don't know what I'm going to do when I get home.
HOLY FUCK THESE ROAD BUMPS ARE GOING TO MAKE ME PISSED OFF.
HOW COME WE HAVENT STOPPED DRIVING FOR 3 HOURS YET.
I want someone.
All I have is my family and they hate me.
I want a boyfriend.
I already tried that girlfriend shit and it doesn't work.
I feel more comfortable towards men.
Because my Mom's hurt me more.
Well, at least were in the neighborhood now.
I might do anther chapter this night if I can't even stand myself.
Signing off,
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End of writing: 11:02 PM
