Behind Golden Eyes [boyxboy] (On Hold Temporarily)

Chapter 14

WE DID NOT HAVE SEX. I know, I'm disappointed too but life just didn't want it to happen. It's kind of ironic actually. At first, fate was all for the Jay and Ryder train and now that I finally got on board, she won't let us do anything. Was this punishment for my past man whoring ways? It's not my fault that it runs in the family. We are all naturally terrible people, except for Nathan. Nathan was the miracle child. If we didn't look even vaguely similar you would have never guessed we were related. Hell, people still can't believe we're brothers. Despite all that, fate could have just let us do our thing considering we were so close to doing it anyway. Trust me when I say I probably still have the hickeys on my body to prove it. Needless to say, things got pretty heated.

Things between Ryder and I were getting pretty intense; our shirts were tossed aside as we pressed against one another. My arms wrapped around his neck as his soft lips travelled hungrily down mine, sucking on the skin. Every mark he graciously left made me gasp out a series of moans. My mind swirled with every kiss as his lips burned my flesh. With one hand in my hair, he let the other trail slowly down my side, traveling lower and lower. My heart began to pound against my chest as his fingers traced the hem of my jeans. Gripping my thigh, he grinded his hips into mine. I bit my lip to suppress a moan only for him to do it again. He flashed a predatory grin that sent shivers down my spine. I kissed him hard, digging my nails into his shoulders, until we were both out of breath and our lips were swollen. Flipping us over, I ran my tongue across his bottom lip then lightly pulled it with my teeth. When we pulled away, Ryder rested his forehead against mine. His hot breath fanned my skin.

"Jay..I-" *FALL OUT BOY STARTS PLAYING* What the hell?! Where the hell?

Ryder groaned, answering my mental questions. He glared at his pocket but I made him ignore the sound by kissing him again. He moaned which made me smirk against his lips. A few seconds later his phone went off again, and again, and again. I'm pretty sure it sounded like a million times before Ryder got so annoyed he had to see what the big deal was. Seriously universe! Another freaking interruption! Ryder muttered a string of curses before reaching into his pocket for his phone. I glared at the object so darkly that I half expected the damn thing to burst into flames. Sadly, it did not. When he checked to see who it was, his expression quickly changed from really annoyed to completely stone. He read the messages in such a cold look that it started to kind of scared me. When I asked what was wrong, he just said he that was sorry and had business to take care off. Of course, I wasn't satisfied with that answer but whatever it was needed his immediate attention and I could always pry the truth out of him later.

So that's how I ended up alone in my room, sexually frustrated. In a way, I was kind of relieved that nothing serious happened. I didn't want our date to end up like the others. Ryder wasn't like those other girls, mainly because he wasn't a girl, but thinking about that now, I wonder what he would look like. I imagined dirty blonde hair flowing wistfully down to the small of a bare back. Wide hips meet thin legs wrapped around me... Dammit, why can't he be a girl?! Yes, I am still falling for him harder than a rock thrown off the empire state building but still! I liked boobs! And last time I checked, Ry didn't have any... Anyways, even though he wasn't a girl, he was special so, and as cheesy as it sounds, I wanted our first time to be special. God, I sound like a bad chick flick. The strange part about the whole ordeal was how much of my control was fading away. Every logical thought was replaced by the need for him to claim me? What the hell does that even mean? I'm not an object that needed to be claimed. I'm a strong independent woman who don't need no man! Or man who don't need... You know what? Screw it! Ry's messing with my head too much for stupid puns.

As I turned over in my bed, my bedroom door creaked open. The stench of perfume quickly filled my room and made nose scrunch up. It was way too early for people that aren't my brother, and possibly even for him, especially right now...