whisper wars

2: into your arms

the next morning i woke up in a shock. panting. sweating all over.. i checked the clock

its 2 fucking a.m.. 

 “fucking hate nightmares” u mumbled. looking to my side was a big snoring fluff ball. i smiled

then slowly got off the bed making sure he wouldn’t wake. made a cup of hot tea and sat on the sofa..

ghod! lillac! its fucking freezing in here! you should at-least go get a blanket or something. my subconscious yells..

 so i got the nearest cloth i saw and wrapped it all over like a cocoon. an continued sitting on the sofa Indian style. i took out the dusty photo album underneath the side table and scanned it.. i opened it to see my family pictures. of us smiling. my mother cooking. 

 i started sobbing. oh how i would give anything and everything just to be with them..

after a few more pictures i closed the album. i just couldn't take it anymore.

 then i saw brownie coming out from the room and his way over to me. i hooped on the sofa beside me and laid his head on my lap.

“I'm sorry if i woke you up” i said giving him a kiss on the head

 i finished up my tea and was petting brownie when i felt all warm and fuzzy inside and let sleep consume me.

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BANG! i jerked up my head. to the sound of metal hitting metal falling on the floor while brownie barking in the kitchen

i ran across the living room the the kitchen to see my adorable brownie barking at some birds sitting on the cable wire outside the window. pans and trays scattered on the floor.

“what’s up boy?” i sad getting closer to him. i looked out the window to see crows. or ravens.. im not so sure but they had seriously blood glowing red eyes staring straight at me

there were three of them. and brownie’s fur from his back stood up. 

usually that doesn’t mean a good sign. off-course not you moron!  and the question in hand is why are there crows or whatever that is in the fucking city!

and why is their eyes red?!. good point

“fuck… your’e late lillac” someone whispered in my left ear. my eyes widen when i turned around to find no one. i voice sounded faint but i was sure it was a man.

late? i scrambled to my room leaving the mess in my kitchen and took a bath and changed. i looked to see brownie has gone to the couch and slept and the birds were no longer outside. then i grabbed a sandwich from the fridge and made sure there was food on brownie's bowl and left

when i got to school glad that i made it just in time. 

 after class i was happily making my way to the cafeteria when my arm was dragged to the storage room my non other than collin harris

 "the fuck Harris?" i said examining my arm from his vice grip hands

 "who the fuck is alexander!" he thundered clearly furious

 "he's a friend" i said rolling my eyes

"yeah! a friend you just fucking met last night and agreed to a fucking date"

"yeah? so?"

"so? are you fucking blind! obviously this guy might rape you or something! drug you, kill you, and he might even eat you!" 

 "oh my ghod! collin" i said scrunching both my cheeks down "why are you acting like this? whats it up to you?"

"i don't want you to go with him"

 "you acting like a possessive boyfriend"

 "I'm acting mature"

 "I'm mature enough to make my own decisions"  i said reaching to the door to get out

 "no" he locked then blocked the door before i got there "this conversation is not yet over"

 "I'm going to fucking kill Karen later" i mumbled

 "Karen was just helping, and you wont go"

 "if you try and stop me from going. this." i pointed from him to me "our friendship. and what we've been thought. is fucking over"

 he glared at me " don't test me" 

 i glared back "I'm fucking serious"

"so am i zaph! you cant just go walking around dating people who waited only fucking four hours for you! are you out of your fucking mind!?"

"no I'm not. and your not my brother." i pushed his chest with my index finger and glared straight into his eyes

"not my father" i pushed causing him to take a step back

"and certain" i pushed

"not" i pushed again 

"my boyfriend" i pushed causing him to back up to the wall

he smirked. and kissed me. hard

my eyes widened in shock as i realize that his hands were cupping my cheeks

what the fucking hell do i do?! well obviously like a what a normal girl would do. kiss him back

 i synchronized my lips with his. the feeling of passion an longing filled my mind and i closed my eyes

we parted to catch our breath. our ragged breathing the only sound in the room.

i looked at him and saw him grinning looking back at me. i blushed and looked away

this is awkward

"ghod your adorable" he sighed

i frowned "I'm still going though"

"what! and after all that! you know how i feel for you. and you know i would do everything! every ghod damn thing just for you! and only you! i would never hurt you" he said with sad eyes

i cupped his left cheek "i know you wouldn't. but, in my situation now. i just cant." i said in a soft voice

"you cant with me. but you would with him" 

i sighed and looked into his eyes "its complicated"

"did he force you? threat you? or anything?" his jaw clenched

i shook my head "no. you know i wouldn't be fooled by that."

he kissed my forehead "i know you wont. but I'm not a fool too. if you really like this guy then ill back off. but I'm always here when you need me" he gave he a sad smile and left the room

i sighed 

what am i going to do now. 

and the bell rang.

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friggin collin harris at your side right there ----->