Separated In Love

Chapter 10

​Pregnant

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I stare at the results. I am pregnant. My hand goes to my stomach involuntarily. I am carrying a baby in me, a human child. A living person. In me. I look at reflection in the mirror. ​

Am I ready to be a mother?

Would I be a good mother?

What about Ryan?

Does he want a child?

​So many questions swam in my mind. Okay, I need to calm down. I pace around the bathroom. Okay first things first I need a doctor. I walk over to my phone and call my gynecologists.

​'Hi, Mae'

'Hi​​, London'. I have known Doctor London since I was a little girl. She is a little bit older than I am but we grew up together.

​"Hope everything is fine?' she asks concern in her voice.

'I think I am pregnant'​

'That is good news' she says and I hear the joy in her voice.

​It is good news, right. I rub my hands over my belly.

'Yes it is but I am not sure yet, when can I come in for a checkup?' I ask and we make plans for tomorrow. I thank her and hang up the call.

I stay in the bathroom looking at myself. It doesn't feel real yet but it explains the way I have been feeling lately, why didn't I piece it together earlier? I would wait a while before I let anyone know even Ryan, until it sinks in that I am having a child. I take a shower and lie in bed.

​A child

​I have always loved children and I know Ryan loves kids as well. His face lights up whenever he sees her child, he makes silly faces at them and loves it when they laugh. I think he would be a great father but his he ready to be one now, he is just twenty-three and we are still at school. I stare into space, my hand on my belly. I know its still an embryo in here probably the size of a poppy seed but its still living. I wonder when it was conceived, I would know tomorrow when I get to know how far along I am.

"Mae" Ry calls from out the door.

"Yes" I answer and run to the bathroom to remove pregnancy evidences.

"I am coming in" he says and enters. I throw all the tests and the box they came in into a draw and close it up.

"Yes?" I greet with a smile as he opens the bathroom leaning on the frame.

"It's time to get to the restaurant". He is dressed casually wearing a t-shirt and shorts. I forgot we are having a casual dinner with the group on a yacht to welcome Raina and Larson.

"Give me few minutes" I say and try to move past him. He stops me.

"Is anything wrong?" he asks looking me with concern.

"No" I say faking a smile. I do not need him being suspicious of me.

"Are you sure?" he asks not believing. I put my hand on his cheeks and he places his hand on mine and leans into my touch.

"I'm fine" I say and lean up to kiss him. I walk past him and go to the closet.

"What should I wear?" I ask holding up to outfits. He picks one. I wear a two piece swimsuit and wear a black tight sleeveless crop top and blue denim shorts with a kimono jacket. I do my makeup lightly and wear flat sandals, carry my cross bag and walk out to meet Ry.