Rewind

Preface

Preface

There are times you wish you could turn back time and undo a few decisions, change few relationships. You wish you had seen what was to come and had been able to .prevent it. You wish you had spent more time with a person who you knew wouldn't be around for too long.

I did not want to fall in love because I was afraid of it. But I did... Now I paid the price.

I had not seen death coming. I wish I had spent more time but death claims a person for eternity, does it not?

I lay on my bed, staring at the ceiling, trying to focus intensely on the spinning fan overhead, which occasionally reflected white light from outside through the window of this dark room. I gave up trying, because no matter what I did, the terrified scream rang in my head repeatedly. I could easily block the images flashing in my head, but not that scream.

As I succumbed to the pangs of sleep, I wished for time to turn back more intensely than I had ever wished for anything else. Before my eyelids fluttered close, I remember myself muttering "I will go to every place of worship and ask God to pardon me if time turned back with the circumstances conveniently favoring me."