To: You in Heaven
From: The one below, on Earth
Moving on towards 13 years.
I don't even really know you,
But I hurt nonetheless.
It's as if a hole is deepening in my heart.
I didn't know you and I still don't know you.
I wish you were here,
But it is impossible.
Thankfully, God has gifted me and my family with another mom.
Not as a replacement,
But as a mother figure since we didn't have one for long.
It hurts to think of you sometimes.
Sometimes it brings me joy to think of what you were and could've been.
I need your help and I need your love.
It feels like I could've had something that most everyone gets,
But certain things turned in the wrong direction and I didn't get you.
God knows what he's doing though,
I try not to question Him but it is hard most of the time.
Why take you away when we didn't get to know you?
Why? Why? Why?
Questions with answers I still don't know.
13 years is a long time to be without someone that they automatically love.
Everyone seems guarded and most don't show their true feelings about you,
I am one of those people.
It hurts too bad to talk about.
But my father is wise.
And my mother is smart.
My God is great.
And I'm going to make it through.
