Since I was in eighth grade, I've kinda known that I was gay . I realized at a young age that I didn't find guys attractive like most of the girls did, I never felt "butterflies" with a guy ‼️ I hung out with guys a lot but just as friends !! When I was around girls though It felt "different", it felt right . 👏🏼💯 I found girls attractive !! I soon realized that this was who I was ; I was "gay" , but it's not like I could tell all my friends and family about my sexuality , so I kept it a secret 😶 for years I hid my sexuality by dated guys even though it NEVER felt right ! One day I met this girl named Kaila 😻 , me and Kaila hit it off instantly .. We were friends at first , then it turned into something more !! On June 4th, 2017 Kaila asked me to be her girlfriend of course I said "yes" cause I had fell hard for her 🤦🏼♀️💘 she stole my heart the second I heard her voice , Kaila is a; beautiful , talented , smart , unique , outgoing girl that I love with all of my heart 🔒 I came out to my friends about Kaila soon after we made us official because I didn't wanna keep it a secret , I wanted to show my girl off to the world !! All of my friends were happy for me and accepted me, and a lot of other people did to soon everyone knew we were together, and they all accepted me and her .. The hardest part was coming out to my parents , my mom never believed in that stuff , my dad did but I was still deeply terrified 🤕 I had planned to tell my dad first , then my mom , but it didn't happen that way !! The word had gotte back to my mom that I had a "girlfriend" my mom instantly needed to talk to me . She called me outside and sat me down "Jaida do you have something to tell me" she asked as I replied quickly "No why" ? She showed me a photo of my girlfriend that I guess had got sent around and asked "What is this" ? I was shocked, and I didn't know what to say as she replied again saying "Jaida this is not who you are" I hesitated for a few minutes and then explained , "Mom if you don't think this is me , then clearly you don't know me .. Yes I am gay, and yes I have a beautiful girlfriend that makes me happier than any man ever could 💗 she put her head down and replied "Jaida you'd be so much happier with a guy" and I laughed , "Mom I think I know what makes me happy, and she looked up at me with an angry look "Don't expect me to approve of this" she stated . I wanted her to approve though , I wanted her happy for me 🤧💯. Days after I had called my dad and explained it all to him , "Jaida as long as your happy I am happy" he replied with an ecstatic voice . I was up all night thinking to myself "My dad is happy for me but my mom isn't" and it hurt me mentally cause my mother is my whole world and I want her to support me 🙌🏽 a month had passed and me and my girlfriend had our 1 month anniversary , I was so happy ! Kaila is my everything and truly is my soulmate , my mom had asked why I was so happy and I explained to her "Today is mine and my girls anniversary" , and I smiled so hard .. she looked at me "I can tell she truly makes you happy, and I just wanna say that I support you" she stated . I was shocked and beyond happy , everyone finally knew about my sexuality and my girlfriend . Everyone accepted us which was so amazing , I couldn't ask for a better group of supporters ✊🏽 me and Kaila have just recently celebrated our 2 month anniversary, and I can honestly say that she is my forever girl, and God really blessed me when he brought her into my life !! I can't wait to see what God has in store for our relationship, but I do know that as long as I have her I will forever be happy .
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{ yes , me and my girlfriend are long distance but distance means nothing to me cause she means everything to me 💘 I soon hope to go see her though . }
~ To all the people that are scared to come out about their sexuality just know that it may seem hard, but it's all worth it 👏🏽‼️ be yourself, and N E V E R let anyone try to change who you are !
