Rant Book

Quiet.

Today was my first day back at school.

I'm a newly 8th grader,

And it is so freaking weird cause all the boys are like taller than me now and don't sound so baby-ish.

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So u know that person who like never speaks in your class, well maybe to there like one or possible two BFFs, but either way are supper supper quiet.

And like never smile, they just have that blank look on there face.

Well that person is me.

Or maybe I should say I'm one of those people.

No, I'm not ugly ugly ugly, I'm average. Also no I'm not super way to skinny, or supper way to fat. I'm average, once again....

But I'm going to just say something for me, and those other quiet people out there like me.

1. Don't tell me that you thought I was mute.

2. Don't bump, step, or push me.

3. There are actually REAL reasons why I am quiet so don't come up to me like ever week and ask why I don't speak much.

4. Just because I don't talk to you doesn't mean I hate you.

5. Don't tell me I'm to soft to play a sport.

Those are many many things that have happened, or have been said to me.

Yeah? I was told I'm to soft to play Volleyball, and the girl herself is supper supper girly. I'm like the only tomboy in my class.

Don't ask me why I'm quiet because I don't like to think about it. I know I'm supper quiet, and I ask myself all the time the same question, and eventually I get very depressed.

I may be quiet, but that doesn't mean I want people constantly stepping on me, pushing into me, and all of that annoying crap.

Really? You actually thought I was mute? Maybe I'm just not a donkey who likes to run there mouth 24'7 like you? Ever thought of that?

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I don't like talking, and it because I don't feel comfortable to do so unless I know the person like the back of my hand.

And no I didn't use to be this bad.

This antisocial.

I deal with major anxiety when being around a lot of people. Well my lot of people is a group over 5+

Me and my mom went to the gym to practice volleyball, like no joke I walked out of the gym three times saying

"No, no, no, no.... I can't do this!"

Just because I had to walk through two courts of people. I just feel very overwhelmed.

As if everybody is staring at me JUGING me.

And yes I will be going to see a therapist.

So help me out, and possibly think a little more why those quiet people might be so quiet. You never truly know what's going on with someone else.

All you can do is try to sorta help them out, even if that means not asking questions, or saying stuff you just want to so badly because there are most likely times when you feel hurt by someone's words to. So hurt remember just because someone acts a bit different doesn't mean they don't have there reasons.

~Rose