Jar of Hearts (Matthew Espinosa Fanfiction)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

The next day was MAGCON day. I was so excited to be there and see all of the screaming fans. I woke up at 6:34 and started getting ready. I wore a MAGCON tour shirt with some leggings and white vans. Next I started putting on my make up. I put on eyeliner, mascara, and concealer and looked at myself one more time in the mirror and was officially ready to go. It was about 7:30 when everyone else woke up so it took another hour for everyone to get ready. Finally it was time to go. When we got in the car, I sat between Cam and Matt. I was glad that Cam was okay and back to normal again but he still kind of scared me. When we got to the convention, a bunch of girls were waiting outside extra early to see the guys. Of course being the nice guys that they are, they stopped and took pics and signed shirts for them and then left to get set up for everything.

"So this is your very first MAGCON tour.... How does it feel?" Matt acted like he was on a tv talk show holding a pretend microphone. "It looks fun and I can't wait to see what it's all about!" I said anxiously. "But if I get bored there's always a beach right next to this place so.." I said laughing. "This is why I love you." He said pulling something out of his bag. "What is that?" I asked curiously. "It's a jar." He said like it was a normal thing. "A jar for what? Jam or something?" I asked again. "No, it's a jar made to have love in it. After I saw your cuts on your arm I started to think of ways to help support you and this popped up. All you have to do i- wait where are you going?" He asked running to me. I couldn't take it anymore. I wish my bracelets had never come off. I knew this would happen. I kept running until I tripped and fell at the beach. I just sat there crying my eyes out and thinking about what just happened. "Hey wait up!" He said still running. "Look I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel sad I just wanted to help." He said exhaustedly. "I know but I knew I should have never showed anyone my scars. I hate this so much. Why did I ever do this to myself?" I said crying. "Look, it isn't your fault okay? You did what you thought was best and obviously it wasn't but now it's over and that's what I'm trying to show you. The jar that I made.. It is meant for you to put hearts in it. Every time you are feeling down put a heart in the jar and think about happy thoughts and why your heart is pumping. It's pumping because it loves you, if it didn't it would have stopped by now. It's kind of like our love. A jar or hearts. You see how special you are? Without you I wouldn't have anything to be... Who would I kiss? Who would I love... Who would I talk to? I don't care what the others say! Our love is real and can never be forgotten. What I'm trying to say is that I love you for you!" Matt finished with a kiss and we were down in the sand getting dirty. 30 minutes later we realized that we had MAGCON and left. I wish I could have stayed there with him forever. What he said was true. I don't need a razor to show me I'm beautiful, when I have him. His perfection is all I need and I realize now that our love is like a jar of hearts.