Before I Self Destruct

Audrina

Thats my shit, come out to the floor with me I Say " as im pulling katy not giving her a chance to budge. I couldnt tell i had a choice Katy says and Smirks" shut up haha i havent been out in so long I yelled , dancing wildly on a guy i stop in the middle of grinding my hips on some "popular thug" when i notice him the same guy that always stares at me his glossy brown eyes looking at me with so much admiration i  always seem to find my self drawn to him i walk towards the bar to break the stare , patron on the rocks with lime uh lots of lime i gave a flirtacious smile to the bartender who was leaning over the bar googly eyed over my body like most guys do at 17 my body was filled and thick in all the right places , of course he didnt know of my real age i had the lastest fake ID from the best spot intown , here you go beautiful the bartender says smirking at me when he says you wear that dress lovely  . Thanks Darling  i said with my best im 21 voice crossing my leg and taking a sip of my patron when i get a tap on my shoulder ready to cuss some street looser or 60 year old sex offender out when i notice ive been holding my breathe i let go gasping for air  i realized its neither its him the guy that always seem  to make my heart warm everytime he looks at me coming from a gaze when i caught the last part of what he was saying my names Audrina Audrina Rose i say giving my hand to him my heart fluttering with my face blushing bright red you have a beautiful smile audrina thanks i didnt catch your name im sorry  i say giving him my undived attention zyaire he says i know we on first name basis but i dont usually stay in these places long can i take your number fortunately for me i wanna see you again if thats fine with you audrina he says while looking at me giving me that look like he adores me the one i love yes thats fine with me i blurt out not doing the pretend to not be happy all non sense Good Zyaire says passing me his phone with the contact page pulled up i take it from him and and type in my infromation putting a rose emoji for my last name passing it back i say here you go hun enjoy your night giving my flirty smile and turning to sip my patron seeing him exit the door out the corner of my eyes made my heart beat normal i dont know why i was so nervous or why he makes my heart flutter i know i need to find katy before she wonders off somewhere with a rich guy shes not a gold digger or nothing like that kinda not she just gets turned on by them i dont  question her on the balcony of the club i spot her sitting on a lounge chair laughing with a glass of champagne in her hand engaging in conversation with a vip guy i walk up to the bouncer and signal him to get her he walks over and,approaches her and when she sees me she quickly ditches her boytoy for my company outta here i say as she walks up already on it katy says laughing and stumbling .

we make it to the car safely without falling shes drunk but she got a tolerance for drunk driving she just might drive better intoxicated i thought to myself a soft giggle escaping my lips i put my seat belt on , blasted the jhene aiko cd and let my mind take me somewhere else till it was time to

get out of the car after twenty mintues of driving we finally make it home im the first one out the car entering the house i let out a glorious sigh i used glorious because thats how zyaire made me feel the sigh was purely how exhaustion made me feel ,   where you wonder off to tonight drina katy asked i juat went up to the bar had a drink and met this guy i say trying not to look katy in the eye a guy huh ? she said cheesing at me the koolaid man has nothing on her yes a guy nothing serious just a exchange of numbers i tell her shes always trying to get me to date someone could you believe at seventeen my mom didnt bother to give me the sex talk or a guy talk shaking my head were gonna talk more about this in the morning she said walking in her room , before heading to bed i make a stop in the kitchen for  my favorite greek yogurt before i make it too my room my yogurt is halfway eaten i already started eating my yogurt as im walking to my room i pull back my covers and set my empty yogurt cup on my dresser and,dive into bed letting sleep claim me the minute im down.