When you thought you have friends but you spend your summer being bored af. I am really lucky to have the amount of friends I have and how much they value me. I value them a lot too. But I've spent my time writing and dreaming, (yeah okay singing, deal with it) in their absence. That's why I like when school is around.
First of all, there is stuff to do, things to think about. You don't need to be alone with your thoughts, so they won't turned into thoughts of self-doubt.
Second, I like school supplies. Is it a weird thing to be alone without your parents an feel responsible and independent by holding a pencil pouch? Yeah. Probably just me. I went on a 5-day trip to Washington, DC. Know what I liked best? Not the friends, not the hotels, not the museums, no. It was buying food. Buying. Food. There was so many decisions, like where to eat, what to get. But the exchanging of money and having money left over from the $10 my school provided? It felt so good. I felt accomplished and independent. Yeah, so uh. just me. A musical-obsessed, wants to be famous and smart and pretty, weirdo. That's Kiwi! Ugh.
Third, I go to public school, so people are shoved in my face whether they like me or not. And most of them don't. I don't feel so alone if people are around me. Oh yeah, btw? I'm a party animal. When everyone is sad, tired, and broken, they can turn to a club to forget it all. They can dance and scream under the low lights and loud music. No one's talking, it's not some game of truth or dare, (I sound like a tweenager, ew), everyone's is shamelessly being crazy. So I drink it up. I don't need to pretend or feel. And WOW. Point is, with people around me, it isn't so bad.
High school?
HELL YEAH! HERE I COME!
#gocatamounts
Sincerely me
