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Part 103

Maya:

🌸2 years later🌸

Shawn is currently on tour and Aaliyah, Lauren, Brian and I are going down to surprise him on tour again.

Brian is supposed to arrive next week but we planned this with Andrew and Geoff. We leave in about a few minutes actually. And Geoff and Andrew, their the only ones that know. But Mike might be in on it too.

I still can't believe it's been so long since Shawn and I got married. It still feels like yesterday when I walked down the isle to him, confessing my love to him and saying our 'I do's' infront of our closest friends and family.

Some nights I even look through our pictures and it still seems so unreal to me.

I married the love of my life, my soulmate.

"Maya! I miss you!" Shawn yelled through the FaceTime. I laughed however, feeling my cheeks burning and my heart almost feeling sad because I'm having to keep this secret from him till we surprise him. "Only a few more months then I'll see you again. I miss you too." I said, blowing him a kiss.

I saw the sadness in his eyes when I spoke about seeing him over a few months. And although it's bad, that's kind of the expression that I wanted. "It's okay. I will see you again, it's not like you're staying on tour forever right?" I laughed but his expression turned otherwise, making him look like he wanted to say something.

He hummed while scratching the back of his neck.

"Right?" I asked, feeling my heartbeat raising in my chest. "No I'm just joking, I'm not on tour forever, I need to be with you!" He laughed and I sighed a breath of relief. "For gods sake Shawn!" I laughed, placing my hand over my heart.

We talked for a while, Brian chipped in a few times but then Shawn asked him to leave, saying he wants to speak with me.

This can only lead to one question now and I know what it is.

"And, what did the tests say?" He asked, looking really nervous.

Me and Shawn have been tying to get a baby for the past year, but I just can't seem to get pregnant. I miss some periods and I think that I'm pregnant. But then I do a test and it turns out negative. We don't know what's wrong and just as he went on tour, he told me to go for tests just to see if everything is alright.

I didn't do that immediately because I was scared of the outcome. But two months into tour, I went. And that's exactly what I was afraid of.

I felt the tears pricking in the back of my eyes, and before I totally broke down, I hung up on him. I was sat on the bed, crossed legs, crying my eyes out in my hands.

"Maya! What's wrong?" Brian asked as he came into the doom, immediately running up to me and pulling me into a hug. "Nothing, its okay." I sniffed, pulling out of his embrace and looking at my phone.

Shawn tried to FaceTime me again, three times in the time I've been crying. "Can you just give me a minute please. I need call Shawn back." I said, wiping my nose and Brian nodded, leaving the room.

I didn't want to FaceTime him otherwise he will see the state I'm in, so I just called him.

"Maya. Maya baby what's wrong? Why did you hung up?" He bombarded me with questions, only making me feel more bad. "Shawn I'm so sorry." I cried again and heard him shuffling around on the other side, probably going outside to be alone.

"Shawn dude what's the matter?" I heard Geoff's voice and I felt sad all over again, knowing Shawn already knows where this is going and he is heartbroken about it. "Was it negative?" He sighed, asking softly.

The crack in his voice audible, making my heart even more broken.

"I'm so sorry I can't give you what you want." I hiccuped. "Don't say that. You're everything I want and need. It's just hard to think we'll never be able to have a kid." He said. "I love you Shawn. And I'm so sorry." I sniffed, hoping he still loves me back after I can't give him the one thing he wants the most.

"I love you more my love. I'll see you in a few weeks. Keep safe okay and don't worry about this. You're my everything." He said, but I knew he wanted to have a child.

He hung up and I fell back on the bed.

What if we just try one more time, maybe they made a mistake with the test.

Or so I hope.