SHE (On hold)

Chapter 9- Decisions decisions

CHAPTER 9

SHE

How did I even get myself into this? My breathing and my heartbeat were telling me that I'm very anxious, scared to death, confused, tired or maybe all of them. I wiped the black paint off and got to Megan.

I remind myself to keep thinking, and not be reacting with how I feel.

I have to keep my ground, I cannot let my thoughts get clouded by my feelings, this would lead to indecision and evidently....trouble. Which do not like dealing with.

I have to get Us out. I find a knife on the floor and use it to free her limbs.

"megan?" No response form her.

"Megan?" No response once again.

This is not the time to be showing lack of response.

I don't get it, she has the pulse, but does not want to wake up..

I took a place before of her on the bed, I made her sit upright, and shook her as hard as I could. I see her neck going all places without the lack of balance.

I shook her for 10 seconds as hard as I could to no avail. She still showed no response.

"For Gods' sake wake up".

And I shake her harder until ......................................................................

she wakes up coughing right into my face, fear and panic immediately flooding her as she embraced me.

"hey you'll be alright" I said as I felt her soft hair, slowly stroking down to her back to assure things will get better. She begins to ramble trying to explain what had happened. I could barely make sense of what she said

" I'm scared, I am so scared, I.... I didn't know what to do. They gave me too much drinks and tried to get me. He came, he broke them, he left me here."

"we'll talk later alright. Now come, we've got to get you out of this place."

As soon as we left the room I noticed the change in smell, the room smelt of lavender. And it was quite pleasant until I hit the aroma of cigarettes and beer.

I managed to get to the car safely with Megan, she did stumble once in a while though, causing attention to be drawn to us.

I let Megan lie down in the back seat of the Range Rover and I start driving aimlessly, unsure of what to do next. Too many questions on my mind, but there is one thing I'm certain of.

I WILL FIND JAKE

no matter what it takes.

MY mind took off with thoughts. All the possibilities and events that have pulled me down played over and over. He told me to get him back home. I couldn't even complete such a simple task. I can't bring Megan out safely or protect her, I can't keep my girlfriend, I can't write. I can't socialize, I can't do anything, Dad was right, sometimes I'd rather not exist. And on and on it went through on my head.

"Ryan, I didn't see you the first time in school you know?" said Megan in a drunk and slurry voice breaking the flow of my over negative pessimistic evil mind.

"errr what?" My eyes still glued to the road with the unknown destination.

" I saw you when you moved in first and you looked out the window, I was running then.................................................away from my problems" she added and ended laughing the last part out.

I didn't say a word. Well what am I even supposed to say?

" I am a liar you know. I'm sorry I lied to you. Many times."