Makeup remover wipes S.M.

Chapter 11

Six months later January seventh

Police officers yell things at Tiago taking him away, I try to follow but they won't let me. What's going on? I sign but they pay no attention. Another Canadian looking cop walks through the doors with a smile on her face. Hello sweetheart, she signs giving me a light wave. Who are you? I panic a little and she smiles. I'm here to bring you home. I giggle at the thought, at the word, home. That's Canada, that's Ontario, that's Toronto. It's where my mom and my dad live, it's where all of my friends are, it's where my brother and sister live. Tiago has been trying to convince me that Aaliyah, my sister, is bad but I don't think so. She was really nice to me all of the time, and so was someone else she was always with, I just can't remember who.

"We'll take her from here," she smiles in Portuguese to the officer. Someone hit me and I've gone mute, I can't speak anymore I just don't know how. People keep trying to help me and teach me but I don't like it, it's frustrating. Are you ready to go? She signs and my eyes go wide. Go where? I start trying to grab all of the things I can reach but I not very mobile. Home, she smiles but I shake my head. This is my home, I demand stomping my foot until I realize she's an officer. I'm sorry.

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"She's here?" A happy voice breaths while the officer explains some things to him. I sit with my eyes closed with another officer next to me. I'm really tired. "Hi?" His voice is loud but happy, it scares me regardless. "I'm sorry." He pouts reaching for my hand. I cower away like a shy puppy. He smiles moving with me, even crawling on the floor. "You don't remember me?" He gasps making me giggle. "It's ok princess," he says more but I pay close to no attention. As if everything we've ever done is being played in the movies it appears right in front of me and I just instantly remember him. Teddy bear! I sign enthusiastically making him smile. "That's right princess," he takes me into his arms and stands. "I've been waiting a long time to get you back."

"We'll be doing routine checkups, and some surprise drop ins as well as installing an alarm system and more locks to your door. Who's her care giver?" Shawn's raises his hand but not very high, he uses them both to clamp our bodies together.

"Mama, mama!" Four little kids run over jumping and giggling at me, my four babies. I wave at them and they wave back signing welcome home, which brings me to tears. Regardless of how I look what I can say and what I can't, the way I act in comparison to the way I used to, I still have feelings and I still think it's beautiful that my kids learned this for me.

"You've really got your hands full," she laughs at Shawn who shrugs leading her in so he could let me play with the kids who beg him. He sits me down next to the kids watching me intensely for a minute. "She can't speak," the officer explains and slowly they move to talk more about my condition.

"Do you wanna play cars mama?" My youngest boy smiles.

"Or we could have a tea party!" My only daughter squeals. I'll never be able to give him more children and it brakes me to think about it. He's always wanted a big family and I remember him telling me, way back when all we had was Adam.

"Or we could all go cuddle all night," the oldest triplet cries hugging me tightly. I try to hug him back but I can't hug him very well, although what I can do seems to make he very happy.

"Don't make mama sad Jericho," Adam hits his shoulder. "She's supposed to be happy when she gets home." He shoves him softly, but Jericho then shoves him back.

"Boys," Shawn starts sternly and they both stop moving two steps away from me. Cuddles? I sign to my nervous looking kids. I can't stand or crawl very well, I've just never really had to or wanted to, Tiago and I always stayed in bed together.

"Cuddles!" They gasp, each of them in a different spot. Two on my lap and two at my sides hugging me with all they can. Shawn smiles after letting the police officer out saying we'll stay home tomorrow because the alarm system will be installed. I've missed you a lot princess, Shawn signs making me cry a little. He crouched down in front of me giving my lips a gentile kiss. Do you still love kisses? He smiles at me and I nod frantically. As long as they come from you guys. He smiles kissing me again. I can barely kiss him back but his lips give a soft feel so it doesn't matter to me and I don't think it matters to him either.

"Mama, I'm tired." Jericho whispers, I want so badly to carry him to his bed and kiss his forehead while I sing him to sleep, or play him off to sleep on my violin but I can't do any of that anymore.

"Come here," Shawn lifts two of them telling me to wait with the two that sleep on my lap. I have no choice really I have to stay with them I there's no where I could go. "Up," he takes the last two and then returns for me. Did you say hi to everyone? He signs and I shake my head confused but as I look around everyone is there. I wave and they wave back. Welcome home, they all sign making me cry again. They don't think I get it, and I really wish they could know that I do. I feel their pain and I feel their sadness, I understand all of their gestures even if I can't tell them I do.