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Part 104

Shawn:

I can't believe this.

It's tearing my heart apart. I can't blame Maya for it though because it's not her fault. But I always wanted a kid of my own, now that will also be a dream that I can't have come reality. One nor me or Maya can live out.

What am I doing thinking all about myself?

My wife is giving herself grief about not being able to give me a child. She must be taking this a hundred times harder than me. I don't want to leave her like that.

So I called her again.

"Shawn?" She questioned, answering my call. I could still hear her sniffing. "Maya, love, don't break yourself down. Maybe they made a mistake with the test. I don't want you to be sad." I said and heard her chuckling on the other end of the line.

"It hard to process but maybe they did make a mistake. I'm praying that they did, because I want a family with you and I want to give you what you've wanted for so long. And that's a child. I want to give you a child." She said.

I smiled, knowing she really wanted a family with me too, but what if the tests were right. What if she really isn't capable of having a child.

It wouldn't be the end of the world, but a space will be left open in my heart, the space of my baby.

I'm seeing Brian next week so he will be able to keep my mind off the subject. Me and Maya said our goodbyes again and then I had rehearsals for tonight's show.

🌸Maya:

Shawn told me not to worry about the tests, and maybe they were wrong. But what if their right and I can't give birth to our own?

"Hey are you ready to go? We need to leave in a bit." Brian said and I nodded, wiping my eyes as I got up from the bed and gathered my things to go downstairs. "Maya." He said softly and just oulled me into a hug. "I'm okay Brian. It's just some problems between me and Shawn." I said patting his back before be let me go.

"What? What problems? You're not getting a divorce are you?" He asked with his eyes growing wide. "What! NO! Never. It's some other problems." I said and he placed his hand over his heart as he let out a shaky breath.

"Don't make things up. It's a personal problem." I chuckled, walking past him and out the bedroom door to the car downstairs. We still need to pick up Aaliyah and Lauren but they're close to each other so it won't take too long.

"Are we going to surprise him after the show in the room or?" I asked, ending with a light chuckle as I looked over to Brian, then quickly focusing back on the road. "Uhm... let's rather do it in the room because I don't think he'll let go of you once he gets a hold of you." He said and I laughed, turning down the street to Aaliyah.

"Maya!" She yelled from out her window as we parked up in the driveway. "Come down! We don't have much time." I yelled up. I saw Karen walking out from the house and I jogged up to her, swooping her up in a big hug.

"It's so good to see."  She said, kissing my cheek.

I love this woman so much.

"Send my love to my boy. And Maya hunny, I'm so sorry about the tests." She whispered to me and I just smiled faintly. Shawn must have told her because he tells her everything.

Besides, she is his mom.

"I hope they made a mistake. I want to give you some grandchildren." I laughed, trying to make the moment not that sad. Aaliyah came down from the stairs, greeted her mom and dad before getting in the car with me and Brian.

We drove to Lauren's house and she was luckily already waiting outside. "Laur!" I squealed put of happiness and I jumped out of the car, running up to her.

She's the best friend ever.

"Aaah I missed you so much." She said with a big smile on her face. "God you just got more beautiful!" I laughed, playfully bumping her shoulder as I took her bags and we got in the car, taking the drive to the airport.

Only one flight away of surprising Shawn.

My love.