Nothing like Us

Chapter 9

~The next day~

Justin's POV

Even though I'm hungover as hell I have to seen Jane. She got discharged from the hospital so I ran to her house. Screw my car. I'm so excited.

I ring the doorbell a few times. It's 10 am on a Saturday. Mr Davison opens the door. "Good morning" I smile. This is weird because they usually just open the door and walk away. But he's standing almost guarding the door.

"Morning. Jane isn't feeling too well" he says. He's dressed for work soon to leave. For the fact Jane has never got me sick and she's rarely common cold sick with all her vitamins and overcleaned things. "Oh" I try to think what to do. I step back "just uh tell her I say hi then. Maybe to call me if she can't. Thanks Mr Davison!" I turn feeling my stomach drop.

Does Jane not want to see me? I look up at her window and her curtains quickly move. An anger boils inside me. I hate not knowing what's up with this girl. I text her walking away "Is baby sick?" I'm panting because I know she isn't sick. If anything the hospital gave her things to be better.

My phone dings and I pull it back out. "Yeah sneezing and coughs. I'm glad you had fun last night" I read and squint. No emojis or !!!!  This is very rare with Jane.

Plus how does she know I went out last night? And why does she care?

I play basketball with my neighbors for the afternoon. Checking my phone every five seconds. I've tried to call her but she won't pick up. I tell myself she's asleep. Anthony throws me the ball and I shoot. "Nothing but net" I snicker.

"Dude my girl told me what Carla did" Mark yells. "Carla?" I yell back and shoot again. Carla is my ex. Of course I have no feelings for her because she's a bitch trying to help her own reputation. Mark drops the ball when he gets it. "Yeah my baby forwarded it to me. Man you don't know?" He looks up at me.

I think of shit I've sent her. Actually none because she never mad me hard. "No I went home and pasted out" I reply

"Come look guys" the guys huddle but I shove next to Mark. Jesus Christ what did this dumb slut do now?

He clicks on some video and I slowly become visible. Obviously drunk as shit. Eyes red with this hoe on my lap. She holds my jaw as I say "I love pussy" making all the guys laugh and slaps my back. I laugh a little almost scared to see what's next. I squint hating the way I look.

Has Jane seen this? Makayla moves next to me and starts to kiss my neck in the video. God damn Justin. I rub my eyes wanting it to stop. "I love your pussy her pussy. Your pussy. That pussy your pussy this pussy her pussy" I laugh like a stupid idiot in the video. I look like my dad drinking with ugly girls around me.

"Justin deserves all he can get well expect the sick virgin" then the video stops.

I feel like I just got hit in the balls and stomach at the same time. Oh my god. "Oh my god" I think I'm going puke my nuts out. Damnit.

"I gotta go" I say making the cheers go to awww's. I sprint home and throw my door open. I slam my fist through my wall then bang my head against it crying. "FUCK" I yell and sit on my floor.

God I'm so stupid. Jane won't forgive this. Me saying I love all this pussy. Fuck I rock my head down groaning.

I just don't know what to do or who to turn to. It's not true. I don't love anything of those girls from school. Fuck you're so stupid going there Justin. You're girlfriend needed you last night.

I have to explain. I can't let her think this is true.

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I knock on her door until someone answers. "Jane?" It's her mom shaking her head. "I need to talk to Jane" I say tapping my foot.

"Justin she-" "no I can explain. Jane" I push through the door. "Mom!" She cries out when she sees me. She's on the couch eating popcorn.

She scowls at me. "You're so dumb" she says sadly. Her bottom lip quivering. She throws her popcorn at my face but I don't care. "Jane let me talk" I try to touch her but she moves away. "I can explain" I beg. She waves her mom away. "The sick virgin" she says staring at me hurt. "Jane those girls are stupid and completely worthless to me" I rub a tear off her face.

"Justin I don't want to be your girlfriend ever again. Not now not ever. Stop dragging me into your gross crowd" she scolds and I can't believe her. I won't accept it.

"I trusted you" she whispers and throws more popcorn at my face. I let it and just simply look down. "I know Jane I know. But Jane I was drunk. I got so drunk because I was worried about you" I'm telling the truth. I had to drink till I was optimistic. "I don't care Justin. I'm not your girlfriend" she looks back at the tv. "You don't need to take care of me. I don't need you" she drags out need.

"But I need you. I need Jane to know I'm sorry and I'm never going to a party with those idiots again" I move closer to her knowing she's listening.

"Jane I didn't touch any of them" I add wondering if she's thinking that.

"I don't care" she says quietly. I set her popcorn down and she's looks weak and ready to cry.

"Well I do. I need you know I love you and I don't love anyone's" I sigh "pussy expect yours."

"Justin" she squints at me. "We both know I can't give you all that you want. So stop hoping and thinking I ever will." She's referring to not just sex but everything that counts on your body to work for itself.

"I know what you're capable of Jane. I've been your best friend forever. Listen to me Jane. I'd rather do everything you're capable of with a girl I'm in love with rather then do everything I'm capable with a girl who looks like you but isn't. A girl I don't love. Jane I want you damnit. Just forgive me" I get impatient watching her stare at her bandaged knees.

Her hazel eyes gaze up at me. "Do you think of me as a sick virgin?" Her little voice is fragile and far. "Of course not princess. You're not sick to me" I get close to her face. "Okay" she whispers before my lips. "Justin" she adds and I look down at her pulling her into my arms. "What is it baby?" I'm panting harder than her. "I love you too" she tells me.

"I love you more Jane" I kiss her and hear her mom hmm calmly.