First and foremost, I am not the type to go out all night. It was one time, for god’s sake, but that one night led to another night and another, until I couldn’t resist going out and getting drunk. It was ridiculous, I admit, I now wouldn’t be surprised if I was considered an addict.
Alcohol wasn’t and isn’t even close to a relief for me, I could only imagine what damage I’d be doing if it was. I know that I already have done damage to my self esteem, falling into depression since alcohol is in fact a stimulant and a depressant.
But let me let you know that I never thought I’d end up the way I am now, I was once always happy, grateful for life, always looking forward to every day. There were of course the days that brought me down, but I always used to be an optimist. Now I’m a pessimist, looking at the glass half empty.
I hate it.
It’s actually been two years since I’ve had true happiness, doing what I love, but that fell apart soon after my friend Brayden and I had a fall out. He and I used to be best friends, but now none other than once close acquaintances.
I don’t know how to feel anymore. Being 19 and having this feeling is absolutely horrible; you know?
Canada’s laws state that when you reach age 18, you can start the consumption of alcohol. That was actually a bad choice on my part, since it now affects my daily life.
I’m going to let you in on a secret; Love is a numb feeling to me. I never felt like love was a necessity of life, because it always felt...numb. And I don’t know if that would be able to change…
Even if it could, who could change my feelings?
Hi there, I posted this FF! This chapter is dedicated to SwiftXHeather101 because she made the amazing cover c:
-Rachel
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Steal A Kiss ↣ ChildDolphin FF
Fanfiction→ After a fallout with his best friend Brayden, Ryan turned to alcohol for a numbing high. This addict is about to get a taste of what he's broken by this fixation made by his only friend... when she admits something he can't believe. ← Ⓒ ℛ.ℬ. 2014
