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"And God knows I'm not dying but I bleed now
And God knows it's the only way to heal now
With all the blood I lost with you
It drowns the love I thought I knew"
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Zayn has never been okay and he never will be okay. Not again. Not ever. And you shouldn't expect him to be, not after what he's been through. So many mistakes he's made. He trusts too fast, loves too fast, forgives too fast. But that's just the world we live in isn't it?
Zayn feels like he's been cut and bruised thousands of times over, maybe that's because he has. whether it was a slash to the wrist he made himself or a slash to his body he didn't do.
Zayn doesn't sleep anymore, not really anyway. He's too scared to close his eyes in fear that he will relive the exact thing he doesn't want to remember. The person he doesn't want to remember.
Niall, well Niall just wants some one to love him. Even if it means he doesn't love them back. He craves the love he never had.
Niall gets so angry all the time, He doesn't mean to but sometimes he just snaps. And I can honestly say he doesn't necessarily want to hurt anyone, but the thing is he does.
The worst thing about it is he cant help it. He loses control and he takes out anything in his path. anything.
And Harry some how somehow gets caught up in the middle of it.
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based on the song my blood by Ellie Goulding
~ Erica
