Me, Mom and Dad all went home after staying in the hospital together for a week.
My Dad looked so lifeless that it scared me, he was now unbelievably thin, there seemed to be dark circles under his eyes that never left, and he was slow and steady in everything that he did.
This was hard for me and my mom to see. My dad had always been so lively, sporty, very ambitious to work and get things done.
We got home and I felt a little happier. I had missed home so much.
However there was one thing on my mind, and quite frankly was impossible to push away.
It was Bruno.
The moment he kissed me kept playing over and over in my mind.
His big brown eyes right in front of mine all of a sudden. Then his lips pressed against mine.
I remember enjoying it, liking the feeling; the tingle on my lips, the warmth of his body.
I snapped out of my thought quickly.
Why did he kiss me?
I couldn't possibly like him after what he did to Alexa, and probably a few more girls knowing him.
But it felt so good I-
No.
He was my friend who I was trying to help change.
But he was so affectionate towards me when I was upset.
No, he was irritating and a player.
But his charming gestures and his scent and dark curly hair and eyes-
I was confused. I didn't know how I felt.
I decided to stop unpacking for a while and take out my laptop. Before I left unexpectedly, I didn't have any time to say goodbye to Alexa. The guilt had been eating away at me ever since.
I emailed her,
"Alexa, I'm sorry for making you feel the way you did about seeing me and Bruno together. You should have told me about what happened between you two, but I understand if you're still angry at me.
I would also like to say sorry for not saying goodbye. You may probably have noticed that I am gone by now and that is the case. I had to leave, I wanted to. You see my Dad isn't well and I want to be here with him.
I hope you understand and I hope to see you soon.
Sorry."
I sent it, feeling slightly better.
Then an email popped up on my screen, it was from Bruno.
Nerves and slight excitement swirled around in my stomach, I didn't know why.
He sent a simple,
"Are you ok?"
I relied instantly with, "I'm ok I guess thanks." And he replied straight after.
"I'm sorry Idalis. For doing what I did, I probably made things a lot worse for you and I shouldn't have done it. But you are probably wondering why I did it and its simply because I like you. I like you Idalis. I liked you when you first moved into my room, I know you don't feel the same way but I like you. I am sorry for telling you all this despite what is happening to your family at the moment but I had to tell you."
I started crying.
He didn't like me at all, he probably did this to every other girl, including Alexa.
My family need to come first now and they're most important.
I wiped my eyes and quickly tried to push him out my head before unpacking again.
It was hard but I would have to do it.
I only had a certain amount of time left with my dad and I wanted to be happy with him.
After unpacking and tidying my bedroom, I made my way downstairs for dinner.
It felt just like old times when my parents weren't so busy all the time and I was happy at high school.
Although I wasn't happy now, I may have looked like it but on the inside I was metaphorically dying. Not so much like my dad; but the thought of him dying made me feel as if I was too.
We sat and had dinner. It felt normal and happy, but each of us knew that it was forced.
"How do you guys feel about going on a trip somewhere tomorrow?" She looked straight at dad, obviously wanting to know if he felt well enough.
He smiled but his sad eyes stayed the same, "of course! Where did you have in mind?"
"Hmm I was thinking maybe Venice Beach?"
Me and Dad both did a little 'woop woop' and agreed.
Venice Beach was only twenty minutes however I hadn't been there in so long with my parents, their careers as entrepreneurs always got in the way.
After dinner I went back upstairs to check my emails.
Alexa hadn't replied but Bruno had left me another email.
My stomach fluttered uncontrollably as I read it.
"I need to see you. If you don't want to then I'll leave you alone, but if you do.. Give me a place and time and I'll be there."
I shut my eyes in deep thought. Did I want to see him? Would it makes things worse for me if I did? Or would it make things better?
"In two days meet me at the same place where we had lunch, at 12:30."
I sent it without even hesitating.
