Strait.

WARNING

Allow me to reintroduce myself as i know you may not recall who I am. And it's fine if you don't, sometimes it's just better that way don't you think? But see here's the catch before I reveal my ..."identity". A little secret you've been holding back something you may not want the world to see, something you want to keep locked away in a dark room to leave to the hands of death.

Humor me. As pointless as that may seem how intrigued are you in finding out who I am? Very?

HERE that curious would get you killed. Simply trying to Suppress the feeling just conjures my friends who are far worst then me. Far more self destructive. So stick with me and I promise you I can give you a reality seen by no other. Seal the deal with a shake Alena?

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*frantically sits up in bed and looks over to phone*
"Ughhh... hello?" Said gravely. "Yeah I was just about to leave be there in 20. No I'm not lying. No no no I'll be there okay? Bye."

Lilian: 20 minutes my ass it's been a whole hour, what were you doing? Ahh Idec, just please tell me you asked your mom about the party

Uhhhh.... this girl knows me like the back of her hand, knowing damn well I hate parties. How shall I get out of this one? "You know I don't see my mom at all. She leaves before I wake up and I'm sleep before she get home. All that just for her to be borderline bankrupt"

Lilian: Just find a way to ask cause I'm going with or without you Alena.

*sighhh* "alright alright but I won't have any fun."

Listen Lilian I've got something I need to tell you. I don't really know when it started or if I'm just crazy but... SAY NOTHINGGGGG...never mind actually it's nothing. Let's just get to class.

Why can't I tell her? That's my bestfriend I can't do it by myself. You will say nothing, you can't be saved, and you will never be loved. No no no I won't believe that. Well believe it you whore.

"Alena? ALENA. Answer the question"

"I'm sorry Mr. Barsta, I...I...I don't know I'm sorry." I said, rather lowly.

"Ms. Peters I'm gonna have to ask you to leave. Go to the guidance counselors office and explain to them why you haven't been paying attention in my class for the pass week." Ms. Barsta said as she handed me the note.

I took all of my things and exited the class effortlessly considering I didn't want to be there anyway.

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"Ms. Peters please come this way Mr. Barsta already called down and explained why your here but I would like to hear your point of view"

Ummm... don't tell her anything she'll think she know everything happening in your life. well there's nothing... really I'm fine.

"Alena you and I both know that statement is false. All your teachers has called to reported your erratic behavior and the sudden decrease in effort for class work. Now let's try that again, tell me what's going on with you so I can help," the guidance counselor said.

I...i... I've been having these nightmares of a voice wanting to make a deal. Shut up. And I've been hearing my own voice whisper irrational scenarios that seem all too real, it shivers down my spine and gives me an overwhelming sense of dread. SHUT UP. And all I can do is put on a happy face and hope to GOD it doesn't show.

With the most petrified but concerned face, I think she can muster up Ms. Geo muttered.

"Ohh sweetie this is far worst then stress. Your dealing with depression and anxiety and a very common case but you have to let me help you. Come here for a session every week to discuss you progress"